WaHaHaHaHa!

2003-11-01T04:16:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE, BLOG! :)

2003-10-29T18:30:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MY FAMILY

Naliligo ako tapos pinag-iisipan ko yung sermon ng ate ko sa akin kanina. Nagalit siya kase ang gulo-gulo ko kahapon. Hindi siya makapasok ng kwarto kase nagpapractice kame ng sleep para sa screening. Tapos nagmamadali pa kame umalis kaya sobrang gulo ng kwarto. Kaya yun. Ang nanay ko naman ay nagtampo kase ang sungit ko kaninang umaga. Sabay hirit niya, "ikaw pa ang magagalit eh ikaw na nga ang labas nang labas."

*here come the tears*

Sobrang mahal ko ang pamilya ko. Kahit na alam ko na hindi kame yung sobrang perfect na pamilya, mahal ko parin sila. Sana alam nila yun. Sobrang proud ako sa mga kapatid ko. Kung alam lang nila kung gaano ko sila pinagyayabang sa mga kaibigan ko. O kahit dun sa mga bagong kilala ko lang. "Yung kuya ko? Ang bait-bait nun. Lagi niya kong inaalagaan kahit na hindi ko alam. Yung ate ko? Nako, sobrang talino niyan. Siya na ang pinakahenyo sa aming lahat." Lahat ng acomplishment nila sinasabi ko sa kanila. Kahit na yung print ad ng kuya ko o kaya modelling chuva.

Nagpapakwento ako sa mga kaibigan ko na kaibigan din ang kuya ko. Sabi nila sobrang bait ng kuya ko. Pag nakikilala niyo talaga siya, sobrang bait niya. Tapos sobrang na-touch ako kase parang, "wow, kuya ko yan!!!" Tapos yung ate ko, kahit na sobrang-sobrang sungit niya, pag nagkataon na good mood siya, sobrang saya niyang kasama. Sobrang taas-noo ako sa mga kapatid ko. Kung ano ayaw nila, ayaw ko na rin. Kung ano gusto nila, yun ang gusto ko kase sobrang astig yung mga kapatid ko. Gusto ko maging katulad nila (minus the bad stuff).

Yung mommy ko naman, GRABE. Kahit na labas ako nang labas, payag lang siya. May rason naman kung bakit malapit na siyang magalit sakin. Feeling ko ganyan siya kase baby niya ko tsaka namimiss na niya yung pag magkasama kame. Yung tipong, ten years old pa ko nun tapos sobrang hanga ako sa mga magulang ko. Oo lang siya nang oo. Gusto ko pag laki ko at nanay na ako, ganun ako (minus the bad stuff). Yung tipong, kahit na nananakit ka na, ibibigay mo ang lahat para sa mga anak mo. Kahit na wala ka ng kotse o driver, sige lang basta masaya ang anak mo. Kahit na sobra-sobra na ang overtime at kulang na ang panahon mo para sa sarili mo, sige lang basta may bahay na titirahan ang anak mo at masaya sila.

Yung tatay ko naman, SOBRANG MISS KO NA SIYA. Sana magkasama na kame ulit. Wish ko lang....

Kung alam lang nila kung ano ang tingin ko sa kanila; kung gaano ko sila ka-mahal. Haay. Mahal ko sila.

TAMA NA IYAK.

2003-10-27T05:23:00.000-08:00

new blog (click here)

2003-10-25T10:29:00.001-07:00

I have never asked for anything this huge in my entire life. Selfish, but it's worth a shot. I'm trying to raise enough money to get lui a roundtrip ticket from bangkok to here and back even for just a few days. No target date yet. I'm just trying to figure out a way to get her here. And for once, i think i'm ready to actually set aside money and pay for the consequences (starve) just to reach that goal. Pero malamang hindi naman ako mamamatay sa gutom niyan. Shempre kakain parin ako. I really really miss lui. And i know she's really depressed. And for once, i'd like to do something really nice for her. She deserves this. So please, if any of you could help, it'd be great. And when i say help, hindi lang yung moral support ah. Genuine intent. Meron bang ganun na term. Basta!

2003-10-25T05:46:00.000-07:00

Gusto kong ma-ospital. Hindi naman sa ungrateful ako na hindi pa ko napupunta sa ospital pero parang, ang saya siguro nun. Malamang lahat ng nasa ospital may sakit. At pag may sakit ang tao, pumapayat. Yehes!!! Tsaka ang daming bumibisita na mga tao. Tsaka parang wala kang pakialam sa nangyayari sa labas. Tapos may flowers at chocolate at whatever ka pa. Parang ang saya. Ang dami kong naisip na mga rason kung bakit masaya ma-ospital pero nakalimutan ko na. Haha!

2003-10-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

May lj na ko. Yey.

2003-10-22T04:02:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING: Spongebob and Sponge-bobs! HaHa!

2003-10-21T22:24:00.000-07:00

Eto na yung surprise...LUZEE'S BAAAAAAAAACK!!!!!

Ang saya!!!! Ang saya saya saya saya saya!!!! So ayun na nga, kumakain kame sa kitchen ni droid tapos biglang may dumating na dalawang box ng dunkin donuts. Tasop kame parang, "eh? yun na yung surprise?" Tapos biglang gumalaw yugn swinging door sa kitchen at lumabas si luzee!!! Sumigaw kame tapos umiyak tapos nagyakapan! Sobrang sobrang sorbang saya ko!!! Sa sorbang saya ko, naiyak ako!!! First time yun mangyari sakin!!! Ang saya!!!!

Grabe, nagchat yung mga a-dayzers kahapon sa ym. Nandun si Kaia, Anj, Tammy, Carlo, Gillie, Erix, Third, Rita, at Kuya Buloig. Si carlo ang batas! HaHaHa! At dahil kay tammy, naging self-confessed lizzie maguire fan na ko. ARGH!!!

If you believe...we got a picture perfect plan... we got you fooled... coz we only do the best we can.. sometimes we make it.. sometimes we fake it.. but if theres one step closer each and everyday .. we'll figure it our on the way..¤

2003-10-20T22:36:00.000-07:00

WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! ANG SAYA!!!!!!! I'm sooooooo high. Not from drugs ah. From Days, from dee, from luzee's surprise, from everything.

Grabe. Where to start?!?! Days muna. Grabe. Sooooobrang high ko from days. Kala ko parang yung unang time na apg staff namin pero parang iba. Mas marami kaming nakilala. Tapos sobrang adventure talaga namin ni nadia. Ang galing-galing ni nadia magdrive! HaHaHa! Grabe. Bow down ako kay nads. HaHaHa! Pag ako pwede na amgdrive, siya naman yung magkocoach sakin. HaHa! Go, nadia! Go, nadia! Drive! Drive! DRIVE!!!! HaHaHa! Tapos ang saya kase nagstaff din si goyok este chris. Ang saya!!! Tapos hindi siya nahiya di tulad nung pag mga strangers ang kasama niya. TAPOS!!! Sumayaw siya!!! HaHaHa! Aww, proud ako. HaHa! Tapos soooobrang mahal ko si rita. Dapat pag naging rector siya, adopted anak niya ko. Hindi ako papayag na maging rector siya kung hindi ako maging anak niya. Haha! Tapos ang weird. Kilala pala ni lin, waps at jeline yung kuya ko! Blockmate nila o kaya classmate. HaHa! Astig! Tapos si cris! Awww, si cris! At si charles! Aww, si charles! Si cris at si charles! Aww, si cris at si charles! Sorbang saya ko na masaya na uli si cris. PArang, sobrang deserving niya. Basta! Halatang kinikilig siya nung tinext niya ko. Awwww. Cris! Halabshu!!!! Gusto ko na pag nagkataon na magiging rector ako in the future, like 10 million years from now, gusto ko si cris ang co-rector ko. Wish ko lang!!!!!! Spongebob and spongebobs!!!! HaHaHaHaHa! Ang saya ng batch! Batch an ulit!!!! December na!!! Who wants to join?!??!

Tapos yung surprise!!! Dapat hindi na ko pupunta sa dee-union sa galle pero pinilit ko talaga kahit na nagkasakit ako kase mahal ko ang dee. Sooooobra. Nanuod kame ng freaky friday. Tapos ang saya kase nakasabay namin si ria tsaka yung boyplends niya na super kamukha ni anton na ex ni nikki. sooooooper. Tapos wala na kaming magawa kaya pumunta na kame sa bahay ni andrea. Tapos! Tapos! Ay, shoot. hindi pa pwede kase may barkada surprise pa. HaHa! Bitin! Bukas niyo na lang malalaman ang surprise. Grabe! Exciting!!!!!!!

Zee!!!! Congrats!!! Grabe! Ang daming magagandang nangyayari ngayon!!!! Sobrang saya ko! Salamt, Kuya Jess!!!! Kakaiba ka talaga! Salamat! Salamat! Salamat!!!!

2003-10-15T20:31:00.000-07:00

I am officially on sembreak. Although i've been on sembreak for almost three weeks now with the excemption of a few days spent for my math finals and my plates. AND, i get to use the computer now cos none of my siblings are home. My brohter's been hogging the computer for the past two weeks finishing his papers.

Owel's a rockstar! HaHaHaHaHa! It annoys hm when i say that. HaHaHa! I am now organizing my sched according to which gigs i want to go to. So THIS is sembreak. Ahhh. Sarap.

The maid from next door is singing again. Maybe this is her way of getting back at us for the time i had band practice and i had to move the set-up in the living room because some of my bandmates were guys. HaHaHaHaHa! Eh yung iba pa naman sa kanila sobrang gustong maingay kaya kahit anong gawin namin sorbang lakas. HaHaHa! And so she torments me with barok versions of the itsy bitsy spider, mr suave, and other nursery rhymes. Lord, help me. HeHe.

2003-10-12T19:45:00.000-07:00

Woah.... I was checking my mail when i read this one post by mon. Luigi, Cesca's boyfriend, got into a car accident and didn't make it. I am in shock. I never really knew him. He was more of Cesca's boy or Izzy's cousin to me but it still somehow hits me as though i knew him. He was so young. He was 18. He was just like me. And they were in love. How awful it must be for Cesca. She really loved him. Their families practically had dinner together, i think. Tipong, kulang na lang magpakasal na sila. Weird.... Strange.... Shocking.... Damn. What a reality check. Kaya mag-ingat kayong lahat. Mahal ko kayo. My prayers go to Cesca, his family, and to him, wherever he is.

2003-10-10T03:45:00.000-07:00

Annoying. May sinulat ako kagabi pero hindi lumabas. Labo, meng.

spent the entire day in mom's office doing my final plate. I've finished the drafts. Now i just have to transef them into the tracing paper and do the isometric view. It's a nice house. I like it. Wala lang.

I have a suspicion regarding friendster. since i started using it, the server's been going loco. It won't go to certain sites unless i log-out or restart the computer. AND, my messages are delayed. It's a conspiracy i tell you. HaHa! I hate it but i can't stop using it. Perfect definition of a hypocrite. ;)

Oh yeah. I got my letter from shell. My painting wasn't chosen. Like i ever thought it would be. Funny thing though. Doca's paintings weren't chosen and she's considered a goddess in our class. BUT, richard and ac haven't gotten their letters yet so we're hoping theirs were chosen. I really like richard's. Wala lang. Nothing to write.

2003-10-07T22:06:00.000-07:00

Naghang yung computer. Nakakabanas. Kung kelan trip kong magsulat, dunpa siya magloloko.

I miss swimming. I miss coach rey even if he has the scariest temper. I miss my teammates even if they can get really makulit because i'm the eldest. I miss marga and paui and jaime and noji and lawrence and alvin and ryan and abi and albert and everyone. I miss wednesdays even if they're the worst training days. I miss mondays even if it's long distance training and i hate long distance events. I miss breastroke and even freestyle even if i do hate it. I miss learning to love butterfly because coach was helping me improve my form. I miss all the drills that drastically improve my times. I miss the push-ups and the really funny warm-ups. I miss the competitions even the long-distance ones in rizal with the really scary tiles that can slice throguh your skin anytime. I miss swimming even if it's raining really hard and the rain drops hurt because they're so heavy and fast. I miss not going to gigs simply because i have to train. i miss not drinking softdrinks because they make my stomach hurt when i swim. I miss pigging out knowing that i will lose the fat in one training session. I miss looking at how firm my arms can get after a really nice workout with paddles. I miss getting wounds on my feet because of the fins. I miss everything. I wish i never quit. If i hadn't, then my mom would have allowed me to join the varsity team and i wouldn't be getting fatter each day. If i hadn't then i'd be really happy.

edit: I miss saturdays because they;re water polo days. I miss playing water polo with the national team. I miss the saturday training that at one point had the same workout for the entire month. I miss getting hit on the face by some guy trying to shoot with full force. I miss wishing i was going to wear water polo caps 3, 5, or 8. I wish wearing tight double bathing suits just in case an opponent grabbed too hard. I miss the odd tans. I miss the scratching. I miss the grabbing. I miss the drowning while trying to get the ball. I miss being so involved in the game. I miss ate bing and ate jackie and all the ates. I miss marga ranting whenever coach doesn't let her go in and play. I miss it. Can we please just rewind?!?!

2003-10-06T06:05:00.000-07:00

Okay, tapos ko na yung final plate ko sa arch2. Doesn't look like much but i kinda had fun doing it. Yun nga lang, hindi counted ang naramdaman mo nung gumagawa ka. HeHe. Well, it was better than the first on i did which was a mess. HeHeHe. Mukhang may post tree syndrome nanaman ako dahil sooobrang daming puno at halaman sa UP chapel. Ho-hum. Make-up exam sa arch1 bukas. Sana naman pumasa na ko ngayon. Para naman may pambawi ako. HeHe. One more plate and a math exam and I'M DONE!!!! Sarap ng buhay!

2003-10-05T05:36:00.000-07:00

Okay. Remember that thing last friday? Yung mabigat na loob? Well, it just escalated into a very bad temper. Everything jsut annoys me now. I think it's a monthly thing. I don't know. agh. Well anyway, pics from the app concert....

2003-10-05T05:21:00.000-07:00

Does anyone have an lj code that they'd like to give to me? HeHeHe. I'm thinking of getting one. HeHe.

Talo admu!!! And by a really big deficit. Wait, tama ba yung word? Basta. Wala lang. sweet revenge for all those ateneans who kept boasting of their win and said that UP sucks. But i won't go further into that because i'm sure to get VIOLENT reactions.

Discovered, or should i say rediscovered, an old friend. Donat, my old neighbor, was online at yahoo messenger. Then we just started chatitng away. Turns out, he was too shy to come up to me when we were kids. And...so was i. HeHe. Mukha ba kong mataray? WaHaHaHaHa! Whatever his reasons were, bahala na. HaHa! I was always too shy to come up to him whenever he was with his barkada in posadas. Why? I forget. HeHe. This might turn out to be a great friendship. Yay for me! :)

Friendster is sooooo annoying. But not when you find long lsot friends. Have i already posted about that? I find it annoying when people think it's the coolest thing ever. I mean, you're pretty much beign judged by the number of people you have on your friends list. Nevertheless, i am thankful that i found people like Ate Michelle and Ate Claud. AND, maybe dimple and jamie. FYI: these are old old OLD busmates. Tipong, kinder pa ko nun. :) Plus it doesn't hurt that i get to plug all i want. HeHe. Besides that, FRIENDSTER IS ANNOYING!!!

2003-10-03T07:15:00.000-07:00

Na-excempt nga pala ako sa kas1. Sayang kase 2 points na lang 1.75 na ko. Pero masaya na ko kase umabot ako sa excemption.

Biglang bumigat loob ko. Ewan. Baka akse may math exam lang ako bukas o kaya pagod na ko o ewan. Hindi na pala ako tutugtog bukas. Wala kase silang mahanap na paraan para masundo ako at mauwi. Good luck na lang sa kanila. Sana wala na yung mga lalaking tumuturo last week. Or if ever, sana pag andun ulit ako para mapagsabihan ko sila na sila na lang ang pumalo sa kahon. Riiiiight. Parang naman gagawin ko talaga yun.

Gumawa ako ng sample painting para sa final plate ko sa arch2. Parang may kulang pa. Ang bwiset kase mas maganda yung background kesa sa building mismo. Oh well. Kaya nga may sample eh. Trial and error.

Nakapagpre-enlist na ko kanina. Ginawa ko lahat ng arch classes ko sa isang araw tas lahat ng ge at math sa isa pa. Pag Monday at thursday, 8:30-2:30 lang ako tas pag tuesday, 9-7 at pag friday, 9-5. Parang ang saya nung monday at thursday. Wala nga lang break. HeHe. Di naman siguro masyadong problema yung lakad mula math hanggang as.

2003-09-30T05:15:00.000-07:00

Arch1 &10- Design of a one-storey residence:
15x20m lot with setbacks (front-3m, rear and sides- 2m) meaning i the house will be something like 11x15m. Marami pang mga requirements na parang, "huh? pano ko ipagkakasya yan?!" Mga 5x5m lang ata dapat yung master bedroom, at toilet and bath altogether. Huwhaaaat?! Wala lang.

Sana sana sana ma-excempt ako sa kas para math at arch na lang problema ko. If i don't get excempted, i'm missing it by around 2 points. Two freakin points! Aaaggghhh! Dang! Sayang naman yun. Sana sana sana ma-excempt ako....

2003-09-28T02:17:00.000-07:00

Tinatamad akong magkwento ulit. Paste ko na lang yung email ko sa dee03. Edited though.

awwwww. Luzee!!! Salamat, babe! I had a great time. Well, not exactly. Natanggap sila. Almost all of the people there were nix's friends and they were singing along with him. Tapos ang galing ng she will be loved nila kase may part sa end na kakanta sina kit at tan ng medley. Ang funny nga namin ni goyok este chris kase pareho yung palo namin sa left hand. As in same style and same height. Ang funny. Drummers talaga. They have another gig but i won't be playing cos it's anielle's party.

Sobrang bad trip. cos calltime was 11pm. Eh alam ko naman na pag calltime usually an hour later. Eh nainis ako kase pagdating namin ng 11, kakastart pa lang ng band bago kame. Basta yun. Tapos sobrang dragging pa ng songs nila. Although magaling sila, parang may kulang at gusto mo lang matulog. Kahit na everlong pa ang tinugtog nila at sandamakmak na incubus songs. Parang kase laos na tapos medyo pagod na ko so inaantok na ko. At ito ang pinakanakakairita. MAy sound system sila pero walang techie. Whaddafuck, diba? Sobrang feedback. Good thing marco from contented cows was there to help. Tapos kulang pa ng mics. Goyok and i had to share so we really had to hit hard. Eh kahit na sobrang kulang na lang na umiyak na ko sa lakas ng palo ko, hindi parin rinig. So marco helped me out. Masaya naman yung tugtugan and all. as in it would have been a great gig if i hadnt seen these two f****** guys pointing at me. As in they were criticizing me in front of my face. Di ko nga lang narinig. Eh bad trip kase i was getting my momentum. As in nafifeel ko na yung mga songs at sumasaya na ko tas biglang makikita ko sila. S*** talaga. Ang sarap sabihin, "kayo kaya ang pumalo dito! Tingnan natin kung hindi sasakit yung mga kamay niyo!" Ayun. I let it out. Phew. now i can breathe.

Joan Carla Luz Liban wrote:
hehehe!!!! hay galpal... ang astig. na-imagine ko lang na kayo ni goyok nagtutugtugan! ang astig. sige, i wish you my best. ingat lang lagi! EVERYONE!!! WATCH MAR!!!! hehehe..... yes..... plug for thee.

2003-09-25T23:43:00.000-07:00

Aaaggghhh!!! Nakakainis. Ang bagal ng nakuhang kong computer sa sc. Tapos sakto pa sa pag log-in ko sa ym, umalis na si luzee. Oh well. Kawawa naman siya. Umaga na dun sa states kaya kailangan ng matulog.

Something happened last night when i got home. Just proves that things can't always go as well as you want them too. After every high is a low. Tama yun. Balance of nature kung baga. So anyway, eto na yung mas kumpletong story ng app concert.

Wala kameng philo class so wala na kong class pagkatapos ng 1. So ayun. Habang kas, nagchachat kame ni luzee care of yahoo messenger and my lovely wap phone. HaHa! Sana talaga walang bayad. Alam kong wala eh. So ayun. Tapos, pupunta dapat ako sa chocolate kiss kase manlilibre si jr kase burdey niya. Eh tumawag si aya. Sabi niya nasa katipunan daw si elaine so baka gusto ko raw sumama. Tapos nagtext pa si owel. So ang nangyari, pumunta akong katipunan kasama si aya, allan, at owel. Si aya yung nagdrive! HaHa! Tapos ayun. Nagkita kame nina elaine at ang kanyang mga kaibigang exchange students na galing france. Woohoo! Ang astig! Tapos balik na kame ulit sa up.

Pumunta akong melchor hall kase may practice para sa app concert kase hindi pa perfect yung zombie naming mga babae. Pagdating dun, ako pa lang yung babae. Tapos mamaya, si agnes na lang yung kulang. Tapos sobrang hindi ko na mapigilan, tinawagan ko siya. Nasa chocolate kiss daw siya. Wala pa yung pagkain niya tapos 250 per head daw ang libre ni jr. Aaaccckkk! Sayang!!! Hindi pa ko kumakain buong araw! Sprite pa lang. Tas ayun. Mamaya, dumating na at nakapractice na kame. Nung mag-e-everlong na kame, biglang tinopak yung amp na hiniram kay cams! Ack! So ang tagal inaayos tapos nabibwisit na si james kase hindi siya gumagana. So habang inaayos nila, naglipat na kame ng gamit. Fast forward. Magpapractice na kame sa avr mismo nang biglang yung guitar amp naman yung ayaw gumana! So hindi na kame nakapagpractice.

Nagstart na tapos ayun. May libreng pagkain pa! Astig! Pumunta si lala at yung kaibigan niya pero sandali lang. Tapos pumunta rin si sheila tapos si cams tas si owel at si zarah. Tapos yung magic 9 at sina hanni. Tas ayun. Sobrang kabado ako kase alam kong mangangamote ako sa everlong pero sobrang nagdasal lang ako. Siguro nakalimang dasal ako kay Lord nun! Naksuot ako ng jeans tapos sleeveless na green para hindi masyadong mahalata na drummer ako. KAse sa comm3, dapat may challenge kame tapos gagawa ng reflection paper. Kaya ayun.

Nung tinawag na yung mga girls para tumugtog ng zombie, sobrang kabado kameng lahat. First band act tapos puro girls pa tapos hindi nakapractice nang maayos! Nung nagstart na yung crash ng drums, biglang nagsigawan yung mga tao! Astig! Sobrang saya! Sobrang bilib sila dahil puro babae kame. Tapos nagkamali ako...many times! HaHa! Pero carry lang. Tapos nun, hey jealousy naman. Ang ganda-ganda! Kahit na medyo hindi ko na nagagawa yung mga rolls ko. Tas adlib na. Biglang nawala yung sound sa guitar! So play parin kame habang umaasa na gagana siya. Eh ang tagal-tagal na bago maayos so sabi ni vincent cut na lang. So nagkabreak muna. Free food ulit! Tuna sandwich and softdrinks. Tas nung naayos na yung problem, tumugtog ulit kame mula sa 2nd chorus bago mag adliv para hindi sayang yung sobrang galing na talent ni vincent. Tapos nun, hala! Everlong na! Sobrang pagod na yung mga kamay ko kaya hirap na hirap ako sa mga 16-beat. Hindi naman ako masyadong nagkamali. Hindi ko lang nagawa yung mga rolls and stuff. Onga pala! Nung food break, may girl na lumapit sakin tas sabi niya next time magjam kame, sama daw siya!!! Astig! Tapos kinausap niya ko kase may banda siya dati tapos babae din yung drummer. O baka siya yung drummer. Basta yun.

Elesi yung last song. Tapos sobrang habang instrumental para mapakilala yung applicants. Tapos ang saya kase ako yung last ni inintroduce. Nung sinabi ni agnes yung pangalan ko, nagclap sila! Yaaaay!!! Ang astig! Naaalala ko na kung mahal ko ang pagtugtog. I haven't felt like this in a long time. Mostly because sleep hasn't been playing any gigs. I'm glad i joined this org and was given the chance to continue playing. Rock on! :)

Gweilos on sat, 11pm! I'm sessioning with sina goyok's band. They're going acoustic. According to tan: It's near ayala ave but along carlos palanca street. from ayala, turn left at rufino, left at legazpi, and left at c palanca. Hope to see you guys there!!! :D:D:D:D:D

2003-09-25T08:35:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday nga pala kay jr at macel!!!

2003-09-25T08:33:00.000-07:00

Ang astig! I'm high. Not the druggie kind of high. Got home a few minutes ago form the app concert. Teka, baket gna ba ang tagal? Ah, late ako nasundo ng aking brader. Ang astiiiiiig! andun si cams, sheila, owel, zarah, at lala! Pati na rin yung mga arki freshies. Special mention kay hanni! Hi, hanni! Siya na ang bagong gig friend ko ngayon. Grabe, pumunta parin siya. Wala lang. Ang saya-saya ko!!! Kase akala ko puro arki people na alng makikita ko sa app concert tas may mga pumunta dun sa mga inimbita ko. Tapos! Tapos! ang dami kong mali pero okey lang kase masaya parin yung crowd. Tipong, lahat ng gusto kong rolls na dapat gagawin na sobrang hinahataw ko sa prac ay hindi natuloy. Pero ang saya, grabe! Pumalakpak sila nang malakas nung inintroduce ako ni agnes sa dulo. Grabe! Grabe! ang galing! Whee!!! Tas si owel nga pala, nagstay kahit na meron siyang gig kasama ni nityalila. Ang astig talaga! Basta! Basta! Tapos nagbihis ako ng medyo girly para hindi nila mahalata na drahmher ako para pag upo ko, magugulat na lang sila. it worked. Nagulat talaga sila. Kaya meron na kong marereflect para sa comm3 challenge ko. Grabe!!! Ang saya!!! Kahit na pumapalpak pa ako at hindi tumunog yung amps ng guitar, tapos parang akala ko na papalpak talaga, okey pa rin! Kase sobrang receptive ng crowd. ang saya talaga. Naalala ko tuloy kung bakit ko mahal ang tumugtog. Sobra! Woohoo! Arkaira member na ko!!! and this is waaaaaay better than that stupid org that didn't accept me. blech. arkaira astig! :D:D:D:D:D

2003-09-24T03:38:00.000-07:00

GALPAL!!!
*saka na ung pic. hehe

May isusulat pa dapat ako pero nakalimutan ko na lahat. Punta kayo bukas!!!

2003-09-23T18:16:00.000-07:00

ARKAIRA APP CONCERT: THURSDAY; 6PM; ARKI AVR, 5TH FLOOR, MELCHOR HALL, UPDIL; 15 BUCKS ENTRANCE
Punta kayo!!! Please, please, please, please!!! Lalo na yung dee. Kase alam kong mangungulelat lang ako para at least magiging masaya ako kase andun kayo. diba astig? HaHa! Punta na kayo! Last ang band. Magdadrums ako dun like you've never seen me before! WaHaHaHaHa1 yeah right. Change of songs lang. Harder and faster. :)

2003-09-21T02:36:00.000-07:00

Exagge.... May party sa bramante gnayon. Parang animal/fairy kingdom yung theme. Sorbang engrande niya. Tipong, complete yung mga props at may mga nakacostume pa. and guess how ols the celebrant is.... Seven!!! Grabe! Hindi pa siya 18 tapos ganito na ka-laki yung party niya. Wala lang. Shock ako. Parang siyang debut pero seven palang siya! Woooaaahhh.

2003-09-21T00:29:00.000-07:00

ciox: Erm, how'd you find my blog? anyway, umm, i don't think so. I have this friend who had a boyfriend who looked exactly like her. Parang silang magkapatid. They were together really long but then they eventually broke up. Hope that answers yuor question. :)

2003-09-20T02:57:00.000-07:00

Friday:
Had my final speech in the morning so i had to dress semi-formal. then i spent the entire day doing plates. Cams and droid came over from ateneo and loi met up with us too. After, i watched the zithar player in AS with cris, aoo, and sheila. Oh, and karen velarde and nicole! And i found out that noelle and ono are together. Pero matagal na pala. Awwww. Inevitable naman eh. aww, may girlfriend na ang twin ko. HaHa! Ono and i used to look exactly alike. I dunno if we still do now.

In the afternoon, i went to burgundy t give minnie her radio back. Then, i went to ateneo to watch the amp thing. My brother was kind enough to show me where it was. I thpught i'd watch ti alone because zee was too busy making sure that it would go smoothly but i saw tami. Woohoo! I really really really miss her!!! And she always shows up whenever i'm about to watch a gig alone. Turns out, she was texting my old number. Oh well. Now she knows. Ang galing. dapat si tim lang at si aia pero di mapakali si zach na kinuha niya yung kahon niya. Ang ganda-ganda nung tinugtog nila yung waiting in vain na acoustic.

After the amp thing, my brother and i fetched my sister in up. he was sick so he let me drive. HeHe. I drove all the way to shangri-la after fetching my sister. My brother wanted to rest so he said he'd take the wheel when we got to shangri-la. When i got there, i wenr around since it was too early. Eventualy met up with candice and everyone else. They ended up playing at around 10:30 or something. Ang lupit-lupit ni zach magkahon!!! Waaaah! LUPET!!! Then we went to bigsky.

I thought we were already late since it was after eleven but turns out, it was jut starting. finally saw nityalila play. ria let me play with her dumbek! Ang ganda-ganda ng tunog. Inggit ako!!! PAgkatapos, worms naman. Tinugtog nila caveman do tsaka buwan! Whee! Two of ym favorite itchyworms songs! then murder but ria was the only one from her band that was left. Nevertheless, amazing. I left halfway into her set because it was about 10 minutes to 1.

Saw most of the old listers; yam, karla, pattoys, xavier, ian, and a few more. Miss na miss ko na sila!!! Lalo na si yam! Tsaka si ja!!! Di ko na nakikita si ja. Anyway, yun. It was a great day but then i was too tired to actually feel it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CAMS!!!

2003-09-18T15:01:00.000-07:00

Naalala ko pa!
Maratot according to ate tring
Chinggay or chi according to my dad and yaya
ayun. post pa ko pag naalala ko pa. HaHa! this is fun! :p

2003-09-18T04:44:00.000-07:00

Seemingly weird/interesting names people call me:
Cha or charissa according to my math11 prof (reminds me of charo)
Maria or ia or eeyuh according to owel (may isa pa pero hindi niyo magegets kaya wag na)
Marsie or marsy or however you spell that according to adie
Mara-babe according to karla vanessa redo(r) HeHeHe
Mara tigas or tigas according to old pmm-ers
Maraguevs according to droid, the sleep "manager"
Maragibs according to ninay
Drahmer according to tring
Galpal according to luzee
...and the forever lame "joke" mara clara according to everyone who meets me the first time

2003-09-17T05:49:00.000-07:00

Discovered that friendster isn't as bad as i thought it was the first time someone told me about it. The webpage made me think that it was some dating service. As of now, i have 20+ friends. hurrah for me. They include people i haven't spoken to or seen in a looong time.

Practiced for our app concert this afternoon. Goyok este Chris fetched me at 12:15 and gave me a ride to megamall. He had to borrow my bongos and i forgot to ask him if i could borrow his cymbals for the app concert. Okey lang kase may prac sila sa biyernes kaya kelangan niya muna yung cymbals niya. Today's practcie went really really well. Second practice palang ngayon pero ang galing. Tapos na. Finishing touches na lang. We played everlong, elesi, zombie, and hey jealousy. And i played realy well today. Woohoo! Kawawa nga lang ang kapitbahay. Dahil puro lalake sila at si agness at nikki lang ang mga babae, kinailangan naming magpractice sa sala. drums + amps = very very loud and annoying sounds from the neighbor and irritated sister. Okey lang kase gabi-gabi naririnig ko yung gma katulong nila na kumakanta ng mga meteor garden songs tsaka nursery rhymes. Hindi naman nila kame pinagsabihan eh. HeHe. Ang galing. I finally played everlong right. Phew. I hope all goes well next week. Shameless plugging. I don't even know why i'm inviting you guys. thursday (25th), 6pm ata, archi avr, 5th floor, melchor hall. Arkaira apps concert. 20 bucks lang yata ang tickets.

things due:
Comm3 speech on friday
pe exam on saturday
arch 2 rendering in two mediums on tuesday
arch 10 kitchen design on tuesday
things i want/have to go to:
amp thingy on friday
anj's debut on friday, 7pm
imago acoustic in dome, shangri-la on friday, 8:30 calltime
yey's party in big sky on friday, 10pm
a-days meeting ata on sat, 10am
arkaira meeting on sat, 1pm ata or 10am din
cams' party on sat, 6:30pm
naiq get-together on sat, 7pm ata

That's how daring i am. :p

2003-09-13T20:51:00.000-07:00

Inalis ko na yung post ko dati kase masyadong controversial. Blech. Sorry sa lahat ng naapektohan.

Anyway, eto na yung mga picture ng mga entries ng ibang classmates ko. Ang galing-galing ni Doca!!! Yung una kay jed tapos yung pangalawa kay doca.

2003-09-10T03:21:00.000-07:00

I'm selling my kahon...again. HeHeHe. I want to buy a new one so i need to dispose of the one i have now so i can come up with the money to buy a new one. It's three-stringed and still very much in good condition. Pakitext na lang ako o email o tag o kahit ano kung meron kayong kilalang interesado. Bebenta ko siya ng 3,000. Okey na yun kase 3,700 talaga yung selling price niya ngayon. oh, diba? nakasave pa kayo ng 700! HeHe. Gusto ko sana asap kaya paki-inform na lang ako. Cheynks! :D

2003-09-09T05:07:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! YEEEAAAHHH!!! Grabe, salamat sa lahat ng nagcomment sa tagboard! Di ko akalain na maganda siya. Happy lang ako sa sarili ko kase nagawa ko siya. Yun na pala yung sinisabi ni sir na pag nag-e-enjoy ka, maganda talaga ang labas. Enjoy, i did. Tapos! Tapos! Yung supposedl na watercolor ni aia, top 5 siya sa class! Yaaaaay!!! Kaya isasali siya sa shell contest. Alam ko naman na wala akong laban sa kanila. Masaya lang ako na maraming nagandahan sa trabaho ko lalo na kase sobrang bano ko nung umpisa ng sem. May pre-selection pa siya tapos yung mga finalists, bibigyan nila ng Php 2000 tapos if ever mabenta yung mga painting, bibigay nila yung 90% sa painter. Ang astig, ano? Wala lang. Wish ko lang na umabot ako sa finals. Actually, wish ko lang na mapili ako sa class. Natupad na pangarap ko!!! HaHaHa! May utang ako na twister fries para kina hanni at dred. Wheeeeee!!!!!!! Ang saya saya saya saya saya!!!

2003-09-08T07:02:00.000-07:00

Whee! Proud ako sa sarili ko kase nagawa ko yung mga painting na 'to! Whee! Okey lang kahit na hindi ako makasali sa contest. Hindi ko namang inaasahang matatalo ko yung mga hung-hang na mga kaklase ko. Basta masaya na ko dahil hindi ko alam na kaya ko pala gawin yung mga to. Whee!

2003-09-06T23:31:00.000-07:00

"tama bang aminin na nating may taning itong pag-ibig? dakila man, walang kasaysayang kakapit sa bulag na pag ibig. san hihingi ng patawad kung walang paliwanag? tangis ko ang yong luha nais ko ang iyong kalayaan." -taning, Imago

Waaaahhhh!!!! Ang lupet ng taning!!! Ang swerte ni yey! May lyrics na siya dating-dati pa nung nasulat ni aia yung kanta. Ang saya-saya kagabi kahit na sandali lang yung set nila tsaka hindi ako nakapuntang freedom.

Mali yung nagawa kong roof plan. Looks like i might have to repeat it. and it took me three hours to do it. I have to cram tonight. Ang dami kasing plates eh! Mmph.

2003-09-05T03:46:00.000-07:00

Got this from Sarah's blog. Nakalimutan ko na lumipat na pala siya. *toink!* I miss sleep.... I wanna jam.

Gone are the days when life used to be so simple
And happiness was just like winning a game
When friendship bonds lasted more than a day
And looking in the mirror was so much easier

But now the time has come, quick as it may seem
To wake up, to wake up from this dream

Do not go gently into the night
Rage against the dying of the light
Don't ever forget what we used to be
For this is all we have
Just you and me

What is there to fear once the night passes
We've endured dark cold nights before
How could we say we felt safe within these four walls
If now we're so afraid to close the door

How can we look ahead if we decide there's no next best thing
How can we ever forget when we keep remembering

Do not go gently into the night
Rage against the dying of the light
Don't ever forget what we used to be
For this is all we have
Just you and me

But now the time has come, quick as it may seem
To wake up, to wake up from this dream

Do not go gently into the night
Rage against the dying of the light
Don't ever forget what we used to be
For this is all we have
For this is all we have
For this is all we have
Just you and me

Graduation Song, Poveda High School Batch 2003

2003-09-05T03:12:00.000-07:00

Sobrang nakakatamad magblog ngayon. Baka kase wala akong maikwento o kaya busy lang ako kuno. Nakatapos na ko ng dalawang water olor. Gagawa pa ko ng isa pa sa linggo. Tingin ko maganda sila. Never pa ko nakagawa ng mga painting na ganun kaya sobrang proud ako sa sarili ko. Tsaka nag-e-enjoy ako. hindi siya nakakastress. Tama si sir. Hindi galit sa yo ang prang o kaya ang tubig o kaya ang arches at montval. HeHe. Kinuhanan ko nga ng picture pero wala pala yung cable para malipat ko sa computer yung pictures nila. Nagawa ko nga pala yung kay aia. Hindi nga lang niya kamukha kase nung pinaglaruan ko sa adobe, mas madali gawin yun kaysa sa realistic na painting. tutal, walang kwenta naman akong gumawa ng mga mukha. HaHa!

Cheering competition bukas! Go up! Astig! Sana champion kame! Pero bago yun, math departmentals muna tsaka kas1 meeting. Haay. Sana matapos na tong week na to.

2003-09-04T05:25:00.000-07:00

nyeh. may pinost ako tapos nawala. buti na lang maikli lang yun. isusulat ko na lang ulit yung mga naaalala ko.

Hindi ako magaling gmuhit ng mga mukha ng tao. Nakakainis kase meron akong gustong i-watercolor na picture ni aia sa bahay ng alumni. alla monochromatic drawing yung labas niya. yun nga lang, hindi ako marunong gumuhit ng mga mukha kaya nasisira yung buong painting. haaay. yung long exposure na nga lang. eto yung pic na dapat gagawin ko. For some reason, lagi siyang nag-iiba pag nalalagay ko na sa village photos. labo meng.

2003-09-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

Sinong marunong pumunta? Pwede ba kong sumama? Yeeaaahhh! I thought i lost the cambio ep i borrowed. Turns out i left it with my arki classmate and she didn' have my number so she couldn't text me. I got it back, put it in my radio that for some reason did not want to play it so i'm listening to it now on the pc. Whee! Lupet ng dv remix! HaHa!

I'm 80% sure i'm going to the rockwell gig on sat even if it costs 200 freakin bucks. Ateneo talaga. Laging mahal. tss. HaHa! Nako, baka masita nanaman ako for hating ateneo's konyo and ma-pera side. dang. Tama na nga. HaHa!

Grabe. Ang lulupit ng mga kantang gusto ng co-apps ko sa arkaira na tugtugin. Everlong pa lang pagod na pagod na ko at hirap na hirap. Konting tiyaga. Practice na! Haha!

2003-09-01T21:49:00.000-07:00

Ay nako. Kapag wala akong maikwento, dun ako pwede magblog. Ahsus!

Walang pasok. Na-suspend siya. Buti na lang. Ang galing talaga ni Kuya Jess. Sobrang naramdaman Niya yug stress kaya pinasuspend niya yung mga klase. Woohoo!

Hindi ako intsik. hindi ko pwedeng paliitin ang mga mata ko at magpaputi para lang tanggapin ako ng mga magulang ni Goyok este Chris. And techinically, he's american. So it kinda doesn't make any sense. Pero sige na nga. At least hini pa ko pinagbabawalan tulad nung isag kaklase ko na sinabihan pa talagang layuan yung anak. Things could be worse. :p

2003-08-28T04:50:00.000-07:00

Panalo UP!!! Yeeeaaahhh!!! We raks!!! Against la salle pa! And ateneo lost to, of all teams, NU! WaHaHaHaHa! Sabi ng kuya ko, "We have to lose some time. It isn't healthy." Laban ko naman sa kanya, "Eh baket naman NU? Sa dinami-dami ng teams, nu pa." HaHaHa! Yeeeaaahhh! victory party ulit sa jollibee! HaHa! Totoo ba talaga yun?

Lui: Crush ka raw ni owel. Ang ganda-ganda mo raw. :)

2003-08-27T03:14:00.000-07:00

pictures! pictures!

Me and Lui last saturday with Saint Poveda in the background. HaHa!

Me and Zee

Archi week, monday- high school uniform day

Raiding luzee's house the night before she left

2003-08-26T20:13:00.000-07:00

I'm usually lazy but i won't be for this entry so prepare yourselves. HaHaHa!

Ang saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya...ng araw ko kahapon!!! Well, more of yung gabi. Yung prof namin sa arch 2 na artist pala ay gumawa ng watercolor demo tapos pinagamit ko yung mga materials ko!!! Ibabalik niya sa friday yung finished work niya. Meron na kong pwedeng ibenta for 40,000!!! HaHaHa! Astig talaga ng arch2 prof ko. Pagkatapos ng arch2, sumama kame ni Dred kina Christian kase manonood din pala sila. Kumain muna kame sa rodics. Tapos ang dami-dami namin. Siguro mga 15 kame nun na kumasya sa rodics pero iba't ibang tables. HeHeHe. PAgkatapos nun, pumunta na kameng bahay ng alumni.

Unang tumugtog yung isang band na pangalan ay sundown muse ata. Di namin masyado naintindihan eh. Tapos magaling sila. Meron silang percussionist tapos naaliw ako sa kanya kase fisrt time kong naintindihan yung gma tinutugtog niya. Never kase ako nakakasabay sa mga beats ng mga percussionist kapag tumutugtog sila kase sobrang complicated ng mga palo nila. Wala lang.

Tapos nila Fatal naman. Wala si aia kase natraffic daw siya. Sayang. Pero ang astig ng set nila!!! Ang ganda ng boses ni kris! Tapos tinugtog pa nila yung inay pinay! Yaaaaay!!! Narecord ko siya sa phone ko pero hindi siya sorbang clear pero pwede na rin. Pagkatapos nun, dumating si zarah. Tapos pasok ulit kame kase may time pa raw ang fatal para sa isa pang kanta.

Pagkatapos ng fatal, moonstar 88. Eh di namin ni zarah trip yun so lumabas kame. Grabe. Ang daming taong pumusok tapos may audience aprticipation pa sa ibang songs. Kakaiba. first time kong nakitang ganon ka-daming tao sa bahay ng alumni. Talo lahat ng gigs. Tapos nila, akala namin aalis na yung gma tao kase si anna fegi na. Hinde! Madami pa rin!!! Hindi namin maintindihan. Ang lalakas pa ng mga sigaw nila! Grabe! Si hanni lumabas na rin so tatlo na kameng sa labas na nagdadasal na sana matapos na. finally, nung natapos, pumasok kame. Tapos nagulat kame kase lahat ng tao may hawak na poster ni anna fegi!!! Talk about labo. Rock concert pa ba yun? Labo....

May tumugtog na duo pagkatapos. Ang ganda ganda ganda ganda ganda ng boses niya. Gitarista niya yung sa wdouji na equally lupet. Grabe. Hangang-hanga kameng tatlo. Ay, umalis na pala lahat ng mga archi friends namin. apparently, late na pala ang 10:30 para sa kanila. Ewan. HaHa! tas ayun. Cambio na. Lupeeeeet! Bbili na sana ako ng ep pero wala pala silang dala. Dang. Hintay ulit. Tapos nila imago na!

Ang galing ng set nila!!! Tapos hindi pa halata na nagkamali si arvin. Kawawa siya kase may flu pala siya nun. Tinugtog nila yung bagong version ng free fall!!! Ang lupet!!! Tapos narecord ko rin siya sa phone ko. Pati yung soft return. Di ko nga lang narecord yung taning. Sayang. Tapos nung rain song, sumali si kris! Bigla na lang niya kinuha yung mic tapos nakikanta rin siya! Ang galing! Tapos sobrang bai nung crowd. Parang sarp na sarap tumugtog lahat ng banda. Si zach ang laki ng ngiti habang pumapalo sa drums. Grabe. Ang saya-saya!!!

2003-08-25T05:15:00.000-07:00

We have the dream broadcasting system!!! Woohoo!!! My brother texted my sister and me. It went something like, "...fyi. we haved dream....we are cool again." WaHaHaHaHa! Indeed!!! Hurrah for star and axn!!! And it's sooooo clear! I'm too lazy to update and i have to do a plate. Dang. I'll post the pictures soon.

2003-08-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

Nasa eroplano na si lui at nakaalis na sa Pilipinas. Hindi naman. She's probably somewhere above the Philippines. Fact remains; she's gone. Wala na ang mga best friend ko. Yung isa nasa Sacramento, yung isa na supposedly best friend ko nasa Australia, at itong pinakabest friend ko ay papuntang Bangkok.... Wala na sila. The first few days are always hard. Shempre pinalala ko pa. Nakikinig ako sa mga medyo senti na tugtugan. Charing.

Masaya ako dahil nakita ko siya bago siya umalis. Dapat sasama ako papuntang airport at bahala na kung papaano ako uuwi pero pinagsabihan nila kong wag na. At naisip ko rin na mabuti nang hindi kame magkasama sa airport dahil tutulo lang ang luha namin.

Sinundo niya ko sa bahay nang mga 11:15 tapos binigay ko yung sleep video. Pinanuod namin habang nagbuburn yung cd na ginagawa ko para sa kanya. Binigay ko rin yung imago cd ko na may autograph nila para sa kanya. Susunod na lang ang sa boldstar. Tapos nun, umalis na kame papuntang galle. Ang saya-saya nung nagkita-kita yung dee. Kahit na all-in-all mga 15 lang siguro kame, masaya parin. Nanuod kame ng keka. Sorbang nakakatawa. Katabi ko si lui tapos sabay kameng tumatawa. Tingin ako nang tingin sa orasan sa telepono ko. Sabi niya aalis siya nang 3. Umalis siya nang mga 3:30. Hindi ko na siya hinatid kase alam kong iiyak lang ako. Siya rin pala. Umalis siya agad para hindi umiyak. Kaya ayun. Wala na siya. Ingat ka, lui! Magkikita rin tayo balang araw at pag nagkita na tayo, may boyfriend ka ng kamukha ni utt! HaHaHa!

22-Aug-03 06:18
From: Lui
Mar... Thanks so much for everything! I'm going to miss yooooÜ! Ü Please tell everyone i said bye... Ü

22-Aug-03 07:51
From: Lui
Anyway... I'm boarding na... Bye! :-( i'll email when i get there! Ü
to: Lui
Youre boarding na?! Nalungkot ako bigla.... Bumigat pakiramdam ko.... Ingat ka! I love you, lui! Ü

Parang tangang nag-aabang ng reply na hindi naman dadating. Baka sakaling biro lang 'tong lahat na ito at babalik sa susunod na araw. Asa pa. Wish ko lang. This is why i'd rather go out than stay home. I'll just end up crying or reminiscing or whatever. It's better when i'm watching a gig. Doesn't hit me as much.

Nakakalungkot kase mga kaklase at high school barkada ko lang ang nakakaintindi. Parang naman kaya kong umiyak sa mga kaibigan ko sa college, diba? Kapal naman ng mukha ko. Ayokong umiyak kase makikita ni mama at ayokong tanung-tanongin ako kung baket. Charing! Gusto kong manuod ng imago!!! Tsaka hindi pa ko nakakapag-open-up kahit kanino. Lahat gn sinasabihan ko ay wala na.

2003-08-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

I just found out that lui's here. But she's leaving tomorrow at 8:30pm. Ayus alng. I got her to go to the dee lunch and movie in galle. Yay! I'll be able to finish the film on my camera! I really really really wanna watch the imago gig in big sky!!! Pero wala akong transpo. AS USUAL!!! Tsaka gusto ko ring ihatid si lui sa airport pero...walang transpo!!! AAAGGGHHH!

Ay, pumasa pala ako sa "audition" ng arkaira. Hindi ko kase mapigilan ang hindi tumugtog. Tama si Zach. Banda na! HaHa! Tapos! Tapos! Naaliw yung ibang mga babae dun kase ngayon lang ata sila nakakita ng kahon. The usual response. Tapso ang astig kase inimbita nila kong magsurfing kasama nila sa subic sa sembreak daw. DAW! Wish ko lang. HaHa!

Lapit na a-days 22!!! Sinong gustong sumali o kaya mag-staff? :D

2003-08-19T18:14:00.000-07:00

Been too lazy to update my blog these days. It's not as important anymore. So important pala siya dati. Palaeh! WaHaHaHaHa!

Arkaira audition today. If i pass, i think i'll just have this little thing inside me that says they only got me in because they found out i had a drumset or i had a kahon or whatever. Blech. Well, if ever, sana arc man lang. Sinab ko pa naman kay Hanni na goal ko by the end of archi, supposing i do continue archi and survive, nakatugtog na ko para sa arkaira. Or at least merong nakakitang tumugtog ako. Wala lang. Wishful thinking although irene wants to form a band that i think is really really cool. She wants to play covers of the usual sleep songs and i'm all for it. :D

2003-08-17T04:12:00.000-07:00

Isa lang masasabi ko: YOSI KADIRI!!! Pero hindi ako nagyoyosi ah. Ika nga ni Ninay: virgin lungs. WeHeHeHeHe.

Zee: Sorry! Sorry! Pinapansin ko naman eh! Salamat! Salamat!
Lin: Kelan na ba tayo manunuod ng imago gig?! :D

2003-08-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

ANG KULIIIIIIIIT!!!!!!! Parang naman ang dali-dali gawin yung bracelet mo! Parang naman may panahon ako. Edi ang bait-bait mo ngayon kase may kailangan ka. Ay nako.... MMPH!!!!

2003-08-14T06:56:00.000-07:00

Something's different. I think i slept at around 11:30 or somehting like that last night. Then i woke up at 7am but i didn't feel the usual laziness or the sadness or the heavy feeling i've been getting ovee the past few days/weeks. I don't know. I just felt lighter. PEro hindi ako nagdodroga ah! HaHa! I think i've accepted the fact that they're gone. Hindi naman sila wala talaga eh. Sabihin na lang natin na napahaba yung bakasyon. May yahoo messenger pa naman eh. HeHeHe.

I sang to my master today. I asked sheila to help me. HeHeHe. Nabiktima tuloy. Pinakanta kame sa archi lib at pumayag yung librarian. Leche talaga. Tas nagdala pa talaga ng mic yung master ko! So pinakanta na ko. Tapos nun, padami nang padami yung mga pumapasok sa lib. Tas pinakanata pa ko ng isa pa. Tas ewan. At least tapos na. HeHeHe.

Sayang. Natalo sina lui sa world series. Hindi sila nakapasok sa semi-finals. Sayang. yung score pa naman ay 0-1. Dang. At least the tried their best. Go lui!!!!

MAy bago na pala akong phone. Yung ericsson. Hindi siya bago. Pinaayos siya at ayaw ata ibenta ng nanay ko kaya nasa akin na kaya kung walang mga smiley yung mga messages ko, pasensya na. Hindi ako marunong. Hindi siya user-friendly! Hinde!!!!! :p

2003-08-13T01:38:00.000-07:00

Mga iniidolo ko sa kahon at drums :P

2003-08-12T19:58:00.000-07:00

Ngyerk. Hi, papa. Yes, my dad found my blog. Nakalimutan ko na naglagay ako ng link sa mga emails ko. HaHaHa. Katangahan.

Okey.... Pinagalitan na ko ng nanay ko.... May rason na rin naman eh. Masyado akong lumabas over the past few days. Sunday lang yata ako hindi lumabas. Nung friday, nasa big sky ako. Saturday, debut tsaka freedom. Monday, kina luzee. At kagabi, sa up theatre tsaka bahay ng alumni. Pero kinailangan ko naman talaga pumunta kina luzee eh.... Hindi nga niya ko kinomfort nung magang-maga na mga mata ko. Life goes on. Tsaka bwiset kase tong master ko. Pinapapasok pa ko. Napagalitan tuloy. At wala pa sina luzee. Kanino na ko pwede mag-rant?!?!

Well, siguro yun naman yung balance of nature. Masaya na ko kagabi dahil sa mga gig. Nakapag-interview pa ko tsaka nakapasok pa kong backstage kasama ang imago. Tas anng bait-bait nila aia kase hinatid nila ko pauwi! THANK YOU, AIA kung nababasa mo to pero malamag hinde. Ngyeh!

Hay, buhay. Pira-piraso na nga ko eh. Ginagapang ko na lang bawat araw ko tapos dadagdagan pa ng nanay ko ng lungkot. These are DISTRACTIONS!!! MAs mabuti na lumabas ako at kalimutan yung gma nangyayari kesa naman umiyak buong araw tapos wala naman akong maisasagot kung tatanungin mo ko kung baket. Tsaka parang naman nagyoyosi ako o umiinom o nagdodroga. Ako pa nga yung nagmumukhang bouncer an ewan kase binabantayan ko sila. Mmph. Wrong timing lang kase mainit ang ulo. Wring timing lang kase mainit ang ulo. Wrong timing lang kase mainit ang ulo. Wrong timing....

I ahve this big feeling that i'm in archi just because of my mom. Masaya nga siya pero hindi ko siya mahal. At para sa archi, kailangan mahal mo siya para magpatuloy. Sinabi ko dati sa sarili ko na bibigyan ko lang ng sapat na panahon. Siguro kung hindi ako nag-archi, hindi kasing strict ang nanay ko. Puro archi ko na lang ang iniisip. Eh ano pa ba magagawa ko? Di kaya patayin na ko kung umalis ako ng archi. Haaaay, Kuya Jess!!! Tulong naman!

Sinend ng dad ko sakin....
Chi !!!

Meron ka palang blog (is that what you call it?) Ang galing naman - buti na lang may links dun sa mga crush ko. (Just kidding.)

If it's any comfort to you, I sent an e-mail to Luisa through the softball website and signed both our names in it. We wished her team lots of luck, and we cheered her on to "Knock them dead, Luisa !!!" I just hope she got it.

Going back to your blog. You know, as a father, it hurts me to know that you're sad, but then I should tell you that sadness at seeing your friends leave is part of life. And it makes it a lot sweeter and happier to see your friends again. Just cry it out, and then you'll feel better.

Here is a poem we studied in third year high school. It was written by a Jesuit, Gerard Manley Hopkins, about an 8-year old girl who was grieving over falling leaves !

Spring and Fall

Margaret, are you grieving
Over Goldengrove unleaving?
Leaves, like the things of man, you
With your fresh thoughts care for, can you?
Ah! As the heart grows older
it will come to such sights colder
By and by, nor spare a sigh
though worlds of wanwood leafmeal lie,
And yet you will weep, and know why.
Now no matter, child, the name:
Sorrow's springs are the same.
or mouth had, no nor mind, expressed
What heart heard of Ghost guessed:
It is the blight man was born for,
It is Margaret you mourn for.

Bigat ano? I hope it makes you feel better (and stronger).
Papa

2003-08-11T08:31:00.000-07:00

Hindi ko na ikukwento ang nangyari kanina sa slave auction. Wala akong balak ikwento. Siguro sa susunod na lang kapag masaya na ako pero malamang matagal pa yon. Nakalimutan ko na siguro ang tungkol dun.

Pumunta kame kina luzee kanina. Sinundo nila ako sa up pagkatapos kong ibalewala ang dignidad ko sa lecheng auction na yan. Ang sasarap ng pagkain. Tapos nun ay uminom kame nang konti. Nakaisang cruiser lang naman ako. Kwentuhan, biruan, at kung ano-ano pa. Kinausap ko si luzee tungkol sa mga nangyari at mangyayari. Konti na lang at iiyak na siya. Buti na lang may sumingit kaya naiba ang usapan. Masaya ako dahil nakakuha ako ng mga picture.

Mga 9:30 na ata nun at kinailangan na ni ciara umalis. Edi sabay naman kaming lahat sa kanya. Nung nasa itaas pa lang kame, yinaka na ni meg si luzee at tumulo na yung luha niya. Sunod-sunod na pagkatapos nun. Hinatid niya kame sa gate tapos ang tagal ng usapan namin dun. Bawat isa ay niyakap siya. Habang nakatayo ako dun, naramdaman ko na yung mga luha ko. Pumatak, dumadami, tumatagal.

Hindi ko na talaga kaya Ika nga ni kaia, ginagapang ko na lang ang bawat araw. Kaaalis lang ni lui, aalis na siya bukas. Baket?!?! Sinend ko 'to sa mga kaibigan ko: Kaaalis lang namin kina luzee. Hindi ko malilmutan yung itsura niya nung nakasandal siya sa gates. Hindi ko na napigilan. Tumulo na lang luha ko. Wala na sila. Lalo lang tumulo luha ko nung nakita ko siyang nakasandal dun. Parang siyang nasa pelikula. Yung pag pinapanood ng batang umalis yung isa sa mga magulang niya. Yung tipong kulang na lang ay umulan at magkaroon ng background music. Tanginang fourth day talaga 'to. Ang hirap!!!

Sender: Kaia
Awww mara. Hindi sila wala, lumayo lang. I know that won't make you feel any better, but if this helps, you know i'm here for you. I know how hard it is to lose a friend, and think of it this way, there's still email. It's the same as what you guys have now...but it's gonna be better. It's okay to cry, mara. Ilabas mo lang. Mahal kita.

Life goes on, dear. I'm sure you know that. Tulad ng lagi mong sinasabi sakin, fourth day yan. Kaya niyo ni JEss yan. Sasamahan ko pa kayo. I LOVE YOU, dear!

Tanginang fourth day talaga. Pero hindi mo lang kakayanin, tatahakin mo talaga dahil alam ni Jess na kaya mo. Smile, mara. People love you. 'specially me

Tancha ko nga. But that's why kuya Jess lets us cross paths. We're here for each other.

Sender: Owel
Grabe mara. Alam kong wala akong masasabi. *hug*

2003-08-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

Updates on the softball world series. Check out lui's pic. Mukha siyang ewan. Ang laki-laki ng ngiti. :p
Link!

2003-08-10T00:48:00.000-07:00

Debut ni Kay kagabi. Umalis ako ng mga 9:30 kase kinailangan kong pumuntang freedom para makapag-interview ng mga female "rakstars" para sa kas1 paper ko. Kasama ko si Chris papuntang oyster boy sa meralco ave dahil nandun yung driver. Hindi siya sasama sa akin. Akala ko sasama siya epro hindi pala pwede kase kailangan yung driver nila bukas kaya kailangan maaga umuwi. Nakakuha ako ng text. Galing siya kay Luzee. Aalis na raw siya sa martes. Nagulat ako. Hindi ako makakibo. Reply ako agad tapos tumawag siya. Totoo na nga. Change of plans. Hindi na siya makakapag-aral sa CCA. SA ibang college na raw pero culinary arts parin. Kasama niya kapatid niya at hahabulin nila ang sem kaya kailangan umalis agad. Hindi ko siya makausap nang matino kase halatang naiiyak na siya. Inimbita ko siya pumuntang freedom pero nasa rockwell daw siya. Kung narinig niyo lang boses niya. Parang may pumatay ng dream niya. Nawasak lahat ng plano niya at wala na siyang magawa kase ayun na. Aayusin na niya yung mga papeles niya sa lunes. Mukhang hindi pa kame magkikita. Sinabi niya sakin na sabihin sa barkada kaya pagkababa ng telepono, nagtext brigade ako. Halos sabay-sabya yung mga reply nila. Mga nagtatanong, mga nalulungkot.

Kaaalis lang ni lui at aalis na si luzee. Akala namin matagal pa. Hirap akong pigilin yung luha ko nun. Nung dumating kame sa debut, sumakit yung puso ko. Yung aprang may sumaksak o ewan. Basta ang sakit niya. PAg huminga ako nang malalim, mas sumasakit. Siguro napredict na ng katawan ko kung anong mangyayari. Ewan. Hindi naman ako makaiyak kay Chris kase magkikita kame ng nanay ko. Baka kung ano pa isipin. Tsaka paalis na rin siya. Hinatid lang ako sa oyster boy. Habang papuntang freedom, nakatunganga nanaman ako. Pinipilit ko yung sarili ko na hindi umiyak. Sinasabi sa sarili na kailangan lang manuod ng gig para makalimutan siya kahit pansamantala lang. Tinext ko si Luzee. At ito ang reply niya:
Aw...galpal. Don't think it na lang first. At, pag tunay na best friend mo ang isang tao, hindi mo naman kailangan sabihin pa eh. It will find itself through the silence
Sender:
Luzee
Sent:
9-Aug-2003
22:06:38
Naalala ko tuloy yung first year. Lahat ng tao ayaw kameng maging magkaibigan. Sila nagsasabi kung ano pwede naming gawin. Ang daming dinaanan at ang dami pa sanang dadaanan pero hinde. Aalis na siya. Hindi ko man lang makikita.

Para naman masiyahan ako kahit konti:
Orayt! Thanks, mara! You always know how to make me feel better. SAlamt ulit, and i'm thankful for you. Labsha!
Shet another one of your quotable quotes. Grabe mara, ang lupit mong kaibigan. Kakaiba ka. Mahal kita. Basta din ikaw. -Kaia
Awww don't worry too much.... Yous till ahve us and even if you're far apart from your friends their friendship still remains close.... -Chris (Quotable quote palaeh! :p)

Ang mga ito naman ay galing kay Lui:

Thanks mar.... I'm giong to miss you too!!!!! Good luck in UP.... Take care!
(mula sa sleep text group)
hi.... This is the last time I'm probably going to use this.... I just want to say, thank you so much, my life would DEFINITELY have not been the same without you guys.... Thanks for all the memories and the music!

Pira-piraso na ang puso ko.

2003-08-08T03:11:00.000-07:00

mar3_16: umm, good afternoon po.
Goyok: but how did u know
mar3_16: erm, your son texted me po.
Goyok: its time to take d fon away from him grrrrr
mar3_16: HeHeHe.
Goyok: so how are tricks?
mar3_16: tricks po? umm, i don't understand
Goyok: tricks u know like whats up wid u
mar3_16: ohh. HeHeHe. um, nothing naman po. just finished doing a plate for school
Goyok: ola le bato waz hapening?
Goyok: wats a plate
mar3_16: that's the profs' term for architecture homework
Goyok: ah so youre taking up archi..... thats good. that was suppose to be my major but i went to lasalle and took up engineering.
mar3_16: wow! um, following after my mom's footsteps lang po. i don't think i can handle the math and science in engineering. HeHeHe
Goyok: but isnt there as much math in archi?
mar3_16: um, i think we have less po. we only go as far as math54 while eng goes higher
Goyok: anyway i didnt get to finish in lasalle coz i went to the states and continued there but in a diff course, computer science. ang layo noh?
mar3_16: HeHeHe. Medyo po. which college po in the states?
Goyok: well i went to monterey penninsula college 1st and then to calif state univ, sacramento where i graduated and where chris was born.
mar3_16: ohhh.
Goyok: nwy nice chating with you and wont take much of your time anymore. thanks and good evening!
mar3_16: okay. thank you rin po. good evening!
Goyok: AGGGGGGGGGGGGGH
Goyok: WHY LORD WHY!!
Goyok: im sorry about that..

2003-08-08T03:02:00.000-07:00

Oh my God. Kwentong tatay part 2!!! Ka-chat ko nanaman siya!!! HaHaHaHaHa!

2003-08-06T16:44:00.000-07:00

Lui's gone....

She left early this morning. It never really hit me until today. I always thought she was coming back even for a day but apparently, she isn't sure about that. I cried this morning. Right after reading her messages, i cried. Not really the can't breathe kind of crying but i teared.

I decided not to drive to school this morning. I was just really sad. I was depressed. My best friend is gone. I sat in the car, looking to the side pretty much like in the movies. Kulang na lang may music. OH wait. There was. Froufrou was playing on the radio. I was trying to reminisce. Nakatulala ako nung math. Hindi ko sinagot ang homework. Wala akong gana. Nakatunganga lang ako sa bintana. Although people keep saying that there's always email, i know it's different. I won't get to see her. I won't be able to see how she's doing. I won't see her funky bracelets and necklaces, i won't get to tease her, i won't get to jsut hang out with her and watch stupid movies like lizzie maguire, and more of that shit. Wala na yung mga kwento niya tungkol kay ***** at ang mga kwentong fabul. Wala nang kwentong goyok. None of those stupid little fights or disagreements. None of the loser jokes. None of the dense jokes. None of those, "huh?!? I don't get it!!!" and the, "Aaaccckkk!"

Lui was and is my truest friend. I learned a lot from her. Good luck on the world series. I know you'll kick some ass. Bring some pride to us Filipinos/Asians. I will miss you....

> GONE by Urbandub
>
> where do we go from here?
> the suspense is a thrill
> to me your feel, your taste is still so clear
> i run, but my legs can only take me so far
> it's beating me down, it's tearing me down.
>
> cuz tonight, i'm feeling emotional
> lonely here tonight, it's not helping me at all.
>
> IT DOESN'T MAKE IT BETTER
> THAT YOU'RE GONE
> IT DOESN'T EASE THE PAIN AT ALL
> THAT YOU'RE GONE
> THAT YOU'RE GONE
>
> i scratch against the walls
> i drown myself in tears
> imagine your hold but it doesn't feel as real
> and i cry myself dry
> it's all over now and you'll never be around.
>
> IT DOESN'T MAKE IT BETTER
> THAT YOU'RE GONE
> IT DOESN'T EASE THE PAIN AT ALL
> THAT YOU'RE GONE
> THAT YOU'RE GONE

2003-08-05T22:20:00.000-07:00

Haven't updated in a long time. Ugh. Things are piling up again. At least i'm done with one plate. Two more. One is a pen and ink rendering with a water color wash for the background then this tent-like stretch membrane plate for arch 10. Can life be any more complicated?! And this stupid philo prof of mine is not making sense. Ugh. I wanna drop. Oh! OH! My mom just bribed me. She said she'll buy me a 3300 if i become a scholar this sem. riiiiiight. Asa pa, asa pa. Masyado ata akong nasiyahan nung nakaraang mga linggo. Argh. I'm so paying for it now.

Good news though. Maraming gig ang imago sa UP na maaaring mapanood. Yun nga lang. Pag nanood ako, dala-dala ang sangkatutak na plates. Blech. Okey lang. Basta makanood ng kahit anong gig!!! Tsaka di ko pa napapanood ang boldstar na kasama si marie!!!

Fatima: Yes, yes. Astig ng lay-out. Di ko na yata ito papalitan. HaHaHa! Pasok ka na sa up! :D
Minnie: Sorry pa rin!
Zee: Sunod-sunod kase ang wrestling shows sa solar. Kaya ganun. Pano na bukas? Basta 1-4 break ko. text mo ko agad para malaman ko kung magdadala ako ng plate sa school panglipas ng oras kung hindi tuloy.
Carla: Onga eh. Kita ko sa tagboard ni kaia. Masyadong familiar yung alrac na name kaya na-click ko. Kamusta ka na?

2003-08-03T01:48:00.000-07:00

I won four hundred thirty bucks from black jack with my mom's neighbors this weekend. And Tito George was betting 250 bucks on me already. He was losing and i think i got his money back. Tito Wilson won most of the money. Thousands yung winnings niya and Tita Jojie lost a lot. HaHa!

I've been procrastinating the entire week. I will regret this. I know i will. Although i'm done with one reaction paper. I'll finish the one on the sona then do my arch10 plate then either draw for arch2 then start my lokal paper or vice-versa. THIS is procrastiantion. At least wala ng masyadong magagandang channels sa tv para hindi ako ma-tempt. Computer na lang ang problema ko. Must...start...working!!!

Blissful night last night. I was with my barkada, sleep and crew, and chris. It was lui's supposedly surprise despedida that didn't turn out like it was supposed to. She liked the up shirt i gave her. Whee! A lot didn't make it, though. Okey lang. we still had fun. I was so happy when i saw my barkada (revised version. WaHaHaHaHa!). I missed them and i mis them now. We were so happy. Just like old days; singing wrong lyrics, walking in the middle of the road, joking around and just being foolish. Shempre, andun pa si Chris. Edi kumpleto na ko! :p

I'm going to miss lui. It hasn't sunk in yet. It's starting though. I've been having dreams and shit. Lui, i love you! I'm really gonna miss you! I won' have a best friend to pester and "bully" and play the who has bigger muscles game! Awww....

2003-08-01T09:20:00.000-07:00

Si Cams nakakahawa. Nagtatampo ako pero hindi na yata ngayon. I think i'm too passive. Ayoko kaseng nalalagot. Play it safe palaeh! Yung kapatid ko pala binabasa paminsan ang blog ko. Buking a buking na ko. Okey lang!!! May ibabato rin ako sa kanya!!! Kala mo tulog ako nung isang gabi?! WaHaHaHaHa!

Irene: Ah, ganon ba? Okey lang. Natamaan kase ako sa lyrics nung song. Ang sarap nga talagang ma-inlab kay Lord. Can't wait for you to join Days. Sana october na.
Kaia: Look oh!!! Si irene gusto ng magdays!!! Batch na! That's if hindi nga siya sa antipolo para makasama ako. Hint, hint! Wink, wink! JOKE! Halabshu, kaia. Kamusta ka na?
Zee: Salamat. Hug ulit. Kamusta ka na? Binuking mo ko kay echo. Napapafanatci nanaman ako sa wrestling dahil sa kanya na dahil sa yo. :p
Cams: Okey lang yan. Mababaw talaga ang mundo. Labo.

Onga pala! Ang mars ay makikita na sa buwan na 'to. Soooobrang lapit na raw niya sa moon. Something about the pull of Jpiter. Towards the end of the month, it'll be seen immediately in the evening and it'll be as big as the full moon. Fun! Fun! Oh joy! What joy! :p

2003-07-31T05:08:00.000-07:00

The power of jars of clay nga talaga oh. Thanks, irene. Yes, Lord, I want to fall in love with you. :)

2003-07-31T04:23:00.000-07:00

Stole this from Christa. New blog to pester! Whee!
When I see people doing good, when I see people choosing good over evil, I know the world is good.
That's really nice. I had this post about it but it got erased when my computer didn't cooperate with me. Too many windows open. Whoops! It reminds me of that end spiel in american beauty. Hold on, i'll go get it. :p
LESTER (V.O.)
I guess I could be pretty pissed
off about what happened to me...
but it's hard to stay mad, when
there's so much beauty in the
world. Sometimes I feel like I'm
seeing it all at once, and it's too
much, my heart fills up like a
balloon that's about to burst...
And then I remember to relax, and
stop trying to hold on to it, and
then it flows through me like rain
and I can't feel anything but
gratitude for every single moment
of my stupid little life...
You have no idea what I'm talking
about, I'm sure... but don't
worry...
You will someday.

I was in burgundy bumming around in minnie's apartment. I got to catch up on her, mau, and a bit of her brother. It really kills me when i hear that mau isn't dong well. Somehow, everytime i see her or hear from her, she's always depressed. Di kaya malas ako sa buhay niya?! WaHaHaHaHa! Halabshu, mau! :)

2003-07-30T07:27:00.000-07:00

Ahh, fairytales. Aren't they great? I have a hang-over from Cinderella, the disney version with paolo montalban, brandy, whitney houston, and that guy from alias. HaHa. Sabi pa dun, "Do i love you because you're perfect or are you perfect because i love you?" Tumpak! WaHaHaHaHa! This si what happens when i'm in love. Pakshet. Life. At least i'm not as sad as i was before. Special thanks to kaia and zarah and meg. :)

Sender: Zarah
There are a lot of things we can't understand, that's jsut how things go. :( thanks, mara. I'm feelign better now. *tightest hug ever* take care ha.
The hug was the one that got me.

Sender: Miss Chin
Hey, baby! Ya, you're all grown already. Miss you too. Hope you're okay too. Goodnight! Love you more! LEt's talk one of these days.
Man, that felt great. That baby thing is cos of my first core retreat. I was sick at the time. Tipong fever, cough, and colds. She took care of me. Parang nanay talaga.

2003-07-29T18:29:00.000-07:00

I had a post last night but it vanished. Oh well. I stole it from cams anyway. And here it is. HeHeHe.
Last Sunday at Luzee's birthday party was Sleep Mr. Musicman's last-ever gig.
It was also, I will admit, our best. (edit ko) I sucked like hell. PArang akong hindi marunong magdrums. Ang baba ng bass pedal. I should have should have should have used my own. blech. (back to cams)

I'm going to miss playing with Sheila, Luzee, Mara, Luisa, and Tria.

Props to our crew for always being there for us! -- Andrea (the manager), Dindin (the tech), Eloisa (the photographer), Rahlee (the other tech, and official manyak), Kaira (the political adviser), Aisa (the sikyu), Patrick (the newly-included prince! :D), and the two who were always missing in action - Kris (the fashion consultant) and Michelle (the spiritual adviser). (edit ulit)Spiritual adviser my ass. Bitter palaeh! WaHaHaHaHa! Tsaka baket si aptrick andun pero si goyok wala?! WaHaHaHaHa! Official percs supplier and taga-karga. :p (cams ulit)

Wala nang day-long practices at Mara's with the great food and scary twin ate (with the CD collection and closet to die for!)
Wala nang quick-prayers-gathered-around-in-a-circle through the intercessions of Pedro Poveda and Victoria Diaz before playing
Wala nang scrambling around for chords and lyrics kodigos before the gig
Wala nang siksikan sa kotse with school stuff and instruments before practice or a gig
Wala nang being territorial with the Quiet Zone
Wala nang love-hate relationship stories with members and managers of other bands (*AHEM*)(edit ko) Double ahem!!! Leche ka, fabul! WaHaHaHaHa!(cams ulit)
Wala nang ethnic dancing to Blackbird, and singing wrong lyrics and melodies to Sunny Came Home, Baby Now That I've Found You, and I Will
Wala nang binyagan of instruments with names like Lemon, Trongky, Tita Beth, Bong, Bogs, and lots of others
Wala nang plans for the "SM-Cubed campus tour"
Wala nang hostility between SLC and the others
Wala nang Corrs covers (hahahaaaaa)
(edit ko)
Wala nang rason para bumili ako ng percs
Wala nang rason para magpractice
Wala nang yellow cab deliveries, baked macaroni(?), ref cake, at sooobrang sarap na chicken during practices
Wala nang masasayang na pera sa group text na laging pinag-aawayan kase sayang sa load ng mga prepaid
Wala nang looking to kazaa during practices
Wala nang milyon-milyong bag na kinakarga namin ni lui (school bag, training bag, violin/percs)
Wala nang libreng pakain sa bahay ni kaira with daniel (awwwwwwww)
Wala nang habulan for band pics
Wala nang 8-12 practices na nag-uumpisa ng 11
Wala nang "i like chinese boys! is that wrong?!"
(cams ulit)

At marami pang mga bagay na hindi na mauulit.
Pero not necessarily makakalimutan.

It was inevitable, since we'd already known for some time of Luzee's and Luisa's plans of leaving the country, but I never really thought the time would come that Mr. Musicman would actually... wake up.

Yes, lui, smallville is about superman.
Tring, pumili ka na ng intsik na mamahalin mo!
Cams, hindi halata ang sira ni trongky.
Sheila, wala nang rason para mabunggo si lemon.
Galpal! Ayun lang. Dahil kami'y may super powers!
I love you, sleep! I still have the tape from my party. Mapanood nga ulit. :p

"I like chinese people, is that wrong?!" Tsaka, "If we don't watch meteor garden, papatayin ko si sheila!"
Sleep in kafe and kublai's
Mr. Musicman in my party

2003-07-28T06:08:00.000-07:00

YEHESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! CLOSURE!!! Congrats to me, congrats to me. All questions are answered. Wala ng ilangan. Whee!!!

Again, Wake: arlington east memorial chapel. it is at c raymundo ave barangay san miguel pasig. viewing tomorrow, 2pm

2003-07-28T04:29:00.000-07:00

Wake: arlington east memorial chapel. it is at c raymundo ave barangay san miguel pasig. viewing tomorrow, 2pm

2003-07-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

So it's over. Sana pinanindigan nila yung sarili nila. Okey naman sana yung gusto nilang iparating. Sang-ayon ako sa pagmulat nila sa mga maa ng sambayanan. Sayang. Edi hindi talaga siya coup kase kung totoo yun, hangang kamatayan yun. Sa bagay. At least may satisfaction sila na nalaman ng tao kung anong nangyayari sa militarya.

2003-07-27T05:39:00.000-07:00

News updates
So many things have happened. Below are the sentiments of my friends concerning everything that has happened. Please pray for our country, for mrs losa, and for love. Yes, love. It's what's supposed to brign us all together.

why do we have to be separated ba? why can't we all just study in one school and be in one block? i hate it!! sana we all had the same dreams, same capabilities(pr same school), same house, same parents, same clothes, sam everything! hay nako i'm tal;king of the impossible and i'm aware of that! -nadia

mara...hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong sabihin para mapagaan ang loob mo...pero kung may halaga man ito, nandito ako, kami...para sa 'yo... (sorry ha, hindi ko talaga alam kung anong dapat kong sabihin!) hug na lang? -carmela

mara - dont you worry, may karamay ka.i know the coup is a thorn i the ass pero think na lang na it's something you can tell your grandchildren... how you stayed in the debut maski na may kuh le desma and that friendship is very important because true friends are hard to find... actually, impossible to find. true friends aren't found. they are made. you grow together eh... walalang!!! and the thingie about galpals and goyok's dad, dont you worry. i' sure goyok will love you no matter what. love is something that you can't stop. maski na your not together, basta you love each other, pareho pa rin yun!!! and besides, ayaw mo nun para kayong romeo and juliet?! except wag kayo magpakamatay okie?!?! i want to see the drummer family alive and kicking ma'am!!! -ninay

Mar,
i really don't know what to say but... i'm going to try anyway. something good is bound to happen. i mean, if you're at the lowest of lows...the only way to go is up(and i don't mean UP...hehe). the challenges we face help us become better, stronger people. i mean, He lets things happen for a reason. if you and goyok really love each other, then i'm sure that nothing can go wrong -lui

galpal- oks lang yan, kung mahal mo isang tao... yun lang ang kailangan mong malaman at alamin. don't worry, kayo pa ni goyok... i'm sure everything will work out! smile na. about the coup, PLEASE say thank you to your mom for making you stay. super meant a lot. galpal... smile na. meron pa akong cruiser dito... tara!!!!:) -luzee

To wake up to find out that someone you know was killed. I kept hoping that she wasn't actually killed, that she just passed away peacefully, na sana sakit lang o ano........ Pero hinde, tao ang pumatay sa kanya.

Sa totoo lang, ang bigat ng loob ko ngayon. Ang sama ng loob ko, kasi puro tao nagpapatayan ngayon. The rebel soldiers/officers have until 5:00 to surrender, tapos ano... gera?! Blood shed? SUNDALO LABAN SA KAPWA SUNDALO?! PUTANGINA! It makes me so sad and angry and fuck! FUCK TALAGA! -loi

kaya gna eh...parang, sana...hindi dapat nangyari. -mm

So what is love? If thou wouldst know the heart alone can tell; two minds would beat but a single thought, two hearts that beat as a single one. And whence comes love? Like morning bright love comes without thy call. And how dies love? A spirit bright, love never dies at all.-maria lovell mara, i hope this will make you happy. He loves you and that's what's important! -nadia

Baket pa nangyari yun kay mrs losa?! wala naman siyang ginawa! I keep thinking of all her hirits and her accent. That time when she said, "turn on the lights for i cannot see your beautiful faces." And everything else that just put a smile on all our faces when her lab questions just made us want to jump out of the window. Fuck. I can't believe the things people will do to make a living. Is that even right?! They kill so they can live?! What the fuck is going on?!
Yes, i am still feeling shitty. Although a bit better. Mga isko't iska, walang pasok.

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

2003-07-26T11:08:00.000-07:00

I AM NOT FUCKING OKAY!

I wrote this to my class' yahoogroup: Nakalimutan ko pa pala sabihin na ayaw ng mga magulang ni goyok ang pagkakaroon niya ng girlfriend. Kaya nasabi ng tatay niya yung buong galpal shit. Tanginang buhay talaga to. Potah! Ayoko ng mabuhay. Shet. Baka sakaling magtatatanong kayo kung okey lang ako, hinde. hindi ako okey. paiyak na ako ngayon at hindi ko alam kung baket. At kahit na magtanong kayo pag nakita niyo ko, sasabihin ko na okey ako at walang problema. Marami na palang mga bagay na kailangan iyakan. One thing i don't know how to do is tell people how i really feel....

I removed the last few sentences because i wanted to expound. I don't know how to cry. I was brought up learning to hide my feelings. I don't even know how to confront someone. Crying in our family is a sign of weakness. I don't want anyone to see me crying. They'll only ask and i wouldn't know what to say. I fucking hate my life. Yes, i am still on the verge of crying. I'm just holding them back. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung baket ako napapaiyak. Matagal na kase siguro. Lahat ng lungkot ng buhay nagkakasama na sa mga luha na ito. Baket ba ako ganito?! Baket ba, Lord? Baket ako ganito?! Baket ang drama ko? Gusto ko ng taong maiiyakan. Gusto kong merong pupunta sa akin at iiyak lang ako sa kanya. Ikukwento ko lahat ng problema ko; lahat ng bumabagabag sa akin at sasabihin niya na okey lang ang lahat. Hangga't may araw pa, may pag-asa pa tayong lahat. Pero wala. Puro maskara lang ang nakikita niyo. Why do you think i have a blog?! I can't say things face-to-face. I don't know how. I live a sad, sad life.

I have so many blessings but i wonder. I have no friends. Most of them probably just think i'm a nice person because they see what they want to see. No one knows me for who i am and i think it's such a shame on my part. I am blessed with friends who don't even know a damn thing about me. They don't know that i hurt, that i feel, that i get depressed from time to time. You all say that you're there but when i need you most, you aren't. Kuya Jess, make me strong.... I find nothing good in me. And that is why i am crying. Now i know. It's all coming back now. That stupid realization from my senior retreat. I find nothing good in me. Yes, i find nothing good in me. Hardly anyone reads this anyway. I may as well make it a private journal.

Life fucking sucks and there's not a damn thing i can do about it. Each day makes it one step closer to eventually dying. Good. Screw this. I am not okay.

2003-07-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling very laconic today. It's that time of the month. Chareeng! Ewan. This always has to happen even if i have no reason to feel this way. It's that time of the month where i start thinking too much. Mmph.

I'm really excited for luzee's party. First of all, vodka cruiser!!! Yeah, baybeh!!!! Woohoo! Second, sleep gig! Perhaps our last. Lui is leaving on the sixth. *cue sad music, cue lights* AND, i made a really nice gift for luzee. Labor of love talaga siya. LABOR of LOVE! Diba, hanni?!?! HaHaHaHaHa! Di ko muna sasabihin kase baka masira yung surprise. :p Oh! Oh! Not to mention all the people who are coming: Ate Jello, Ate JP, Ate Anna, Karla, MM, Sir Marlo, Sir Dino, Miss Chin, and many, many more! Whee! Miss ko na sila! Oh! Oh! Tutugtog pa sina sir marlo. Yehes!!! Astig! Mr. Musicman and co.

Back to being laconic. I am a stone. I have no feelings. Bleck. Screw that. Wala lang talaga. Di ko maipaliwanag.

Funny how people never come to me asking to help. Tipong, lagi na lang ako yung nag-aalala sa kanila. Pag kailangan nila ng tulong, andiyan ako pero pag ako naman yung nangangailangan ng tulong, wala sila. At sila pa yung mga nagsasabi dati na kung kailangan ko ng tulong, andiyan sila. Riiight. Hindi naman sa nagfifish ako, pero nahalata ko lang. Totoo naman eh. Pero hindi naman kase ako yung tipong magsasabi nun basta-basta. Nagpaparamdam, pero hindi sinasabi. Siguro naman maiintindihan na nila yun. Halata naman masyado sa mukha ko kung may problema ako o pag may bumabagabag sakin. Haaay. I'm thinking too much again. *sigh* Hindi na ba obvious yan?! Bleck. Parang naman sasabihin ko rin na may bumabagabag sakin pero at least, diba? *sigh* Tama na nga. Marami pa kong ikakapa. *huling sigh*

2003-07-23T15:26:00.000-07:00

Owel: Panalo! HaHaHaHaHa!
Miko: Tama yun! Tama yun! Hidni naman ako pwede humirit dahil sa manager nila. Soooooobrang plastic ko sa kanya. Blech.
Kaia: Benta parin hanggang ngayon! HaHaHa!

2003-07-23T01:14:00.000-07:00

It's been a while. I couldn't on monday because the server was going loco on me again and yesterday, the power kept fluctuating because of the "storm". Asar nga eh. I-pu-publish ko na yung post ko taps nagshutdown siya. Irita. Oh well.

Nakakairita ang philo prof ko. Sinabihan ba naman kame na ibabagsak kame kase ang tanga namin. First of all, hindi niya sinabi na gumawa ng reflection. Sabi lang niya, "write your summary in one sheet of yellow pad." Eto pa. Nung ipapasa ko na sana, tatanggapin na dapat niya. Eh iilang mga sheets yun so sinabi ko i-a-ayos ko lang. So, ibig sabihin. wala siyang angal dun. Tapos biglang sasabihin niya na ang panget ng handwriting ko at hindi niya maintindihan. Dapat daw typewritten tsaka paragraph form. Hello?!?!?! Alam ba niya kung anong sinabi niya?!?! Ni isa sa buong klase ang may alam na dapat reflection siya. Tapos nung nagtatanong kame, nagagalit siya kase hindi raw namin maintindihan. Kaya nga nagtatanong eh! Bobo talaga yun. Philo prof my ass. Saktong words ng book ang sinasabi niya eh. Kung pwede lang, drop ko na klase niya. Tss.

Anyway, para naman sumaya ako. Sobrang funny nito. Nagchachat kase kame ni goyok (este chris). Eh mainit na mainit ang ulo ko nun kase nagloloko yung server. So nagmumura ako sa kanya so shempre, siya naman, pinahinahon ako. Tapos eto ang sumunod:
mar3_16 (9:02:03 PM): thanks....
chrismgo (9:02:16 PM): hu u
chrismgo (9:03:03 PM): sowee wrong send mara pho!
mar3_16 (9:04:01 PM): pho?
chrismgo (9:04:02 PM): elooooooooo! anybody there...........
chrismgo (9:04:42 PM): this goyok dad... hu u plis
mar3_16 (9:06:07 PM): oh, good evening, po. this is mara. i thought you were chris. my mistake, sorry po.
chrismgo (9:06:51 PM): mara? wat r u n chris up 2?
mar3_16 (9:08:01 PM): umm, i beg your pardon, what do you mean po?
chrismgo (9:08:47 PM): I mean r u his galpal?
chrismgo (9:09:49 PM): y r u taking 2 long 2 ans my ques?
mar3_16 (9:10:08 PM): i'm writing a paper for my comm3 class po. sorry.
chrismgo (9:12:18 PM): ahhhh ok sorry for bodering u.......i jas wnt u 2 maybe get chris 2 study jas lyk u do. u know yung give priority to his studies more than his gimiks. by the does he have other girl friends?
mar3_16 (9:14:11 PM): HeHeHe. um, i think he does because he studies a lot more now and he gets good grades. i think he knows how to balance his time. and, about the girl friends, erm, you'll have to ask him na lang po.
chrismgo (9:17:08 PM): dats gud 2 know dat hes studying. but bout his girl friends maybe i'll have 2 ask him. but having lots and lots and lots of girl friends is'nt bad is it? do'nt commit social suicide jas yet mingle get around. take care and gud night!
mar3_16 (9:18:37 PM): HeHeHe. opo, i won't commit suicide. i have my morals intact. goodnight po.
chrismgo (9:20:06 PM): nonononono i don't mean commit suicide.... i mean social suicide u know as in seeing 1 person only.... sumting lyk dat.
mar3_16 (9:20:45 PM): ohh. HeHeHe. opo.
HaHaHaHaHa! Panaloooooo! Tawa kame ni kaia nang tawa habang nagaganap yung chat. Tapos kame naman ni goyok nagtetext kase hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko. HaHaHaHaHa! Oh, and right before going to bed, chris told me that his parents didn't like the fact that he had a girlfriend. Things are beginning to make sense now. Then again, my mom teases me like hell. What to do, what to do. The end is the beginning is the end. Whatever that means.

2003-07-20T06:33:00.000-07:00

Chris and i went to his blockmate's party last night. We got there at 8:30 and they were pretty much getting wasted already. He was high and this other guy was high, and another was getting high, and so on. Ha! I hated it. Smoke filled up the room and within a few minutes, we smelled like it as well. Gin Lejano was there as well. Big surprise. Wala lang. Mas matanda kase siya. FYI, it was a csa party.

We went to the wake of Cathy's dad after. We got there in the middle of a mass. I felt really bad cos i could really smell the smoke on my clothes. Soooobrang dyahe. Baka akalain ng tao nagyoyosi kame o druggies kame. Lakas ng amoy sa party eh. So there. Rahlee and Misha came soon after. After the mass, we went to Cathy. She'd been crying for i don't know how long and she still WAS crying. We all didn't know what to say. By then, it was me, chris, rahlee, misha, marga, sheila, and her barkada. All we could do was give her a hug. She hung on sooo tight and i felt so bad because i couldn't do anything. She started up a conversation and soon, she wasn't crying anymore. I was glad cos she was smiling and laughing. I can't begin to imagine how it must feel like. I couldn't even bear to look at the coffin. I was too scared. We left at around 11. Chris brought me home.

When i got home, my mom's friends were still there. I tried to do my kas1 readings but fell asleep. When i woke up, they were even noisier. They were playing black jack at 2am. Being tired as hell, i just fell right back to sleep.

I finished my kas1 readings very very early today. Yay for me!

2003-07-19T03:40:00.000-07:00

Math departmentals today. Blech. I think that i shall never see, a grade as lovely as a three. Bibili talaga ako nung shirt na yun. Si brenda kabisado yung buong up version ng poem na yun. HaHaHa! Talo nanaman up sa uaap. What else is new? HeHeHe. Sayang. Ang ganda na nung 1st half. Di kase sila consistent. Tapos ang palpak pa ng freethrows tsaka puro turnover nanaman. Hello?!? Hawakan niyo kaya yung bola?! HaHaHa! Bitter palaeh!

My condolences to Cathy and her family. Her dad passed away last night. The wake is in loyola memorial in guadalupe. I'm going tonight. Please, let's pray for the eternal repose of his soul. Cathy, mahal kita at lalo na ng dee. We're all here for you.....

Irene: HeHeHe. Cheynks. Astig mga bandang pinoy. Yes! Yes!
Ate Dada: Yes, my nth. Madali ako magsawa. what can i say? HeHeHe. And it's all cos of you. Ikaw kase nagbigay sakin ng info kung saan pwede kumuha. WaHaHaHaHa!
Kaia: Nice seeing you too. :p
Owel: Salamat! Naaliw kase ako sa parang tribal eklat. HaHa!
Zee: Okey na siya kase pinalitan ko yung interface. WaHaHaHaHa! May kulang ata sa template nung luma. Di ako mapakali sa iisang interface eh. :p

2003-07-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

Zee!!!! Tulong! Di ko maayos yung comments link eklat ko. Tingin ko kase lagi akong nagpapalit ng interface. Nalilito na siya. HaHa! Malas ng blogger! At hindi lang siguro ako equipped sa aking html skills. HaHa! tulong po!

2003-07-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

May isang chikadee na dumapo sa sanga. Dumating ang isa, dalawa na sila....

I probably failed my kas1 test. It was inevitable. At least masarap yung nakain ko! Whee!

This day sucks. I drove really badly this morning, got to math class a few minutes late, found out there was a practice exam, couldn't answer most of it, found out it was graded, failed miserably on my kas1 exam, was made to junk my kas1 lokal topic which i was soooo excited for. Hello?!?! Sasabihin niya na kahit anong topic so pinili ko ang women in contemporary philippine music tapos sasabihin niya dapat specific place. Whaddafeck?!?! Akala ko ba any topic?! Tapos ngayon gusto niya history ng pasig! Tangina niya! Leche ka! Hindi pa marunong magturo. Blech.

May nabasa akong imago interview na nakapagpagaan ng loob ko. Okey na ko.

I dreamt of something last night. Someone asked me this before. You know how there are jsut some people that no matter what they do, you just get really grumpy towards them? Kahit na wala pa silang ginagawa, parang ang sama na ng tingin mo. Tipong, ang kulet kase. I dreamt of one specific person. It was something like how i kept telling her that i was tired of it; her bothering me. And that it isn't worth it if our friendship is only yielding more negative effects than positive. When there comes a time that being his/her friend is stressful. When you just want to say, "I'm tired of this." Wala lang. I'm sure you all don't get me. A prize to whoever does. Oh, and that dream was about this one specific person. Sakto talaga. Oh well.

Lin: HaHaHa! Kung binasa mo yung mga lumang entries, matatawa ka lang. HeHeHe. Tagal mo kase mag-update eh! :p
Zee: May topak ata ang main site. I'll fix it asap. Walang anuman. Alam mo naman na mahal kita, diba? Kahit ano para sa yo dahil isa ka sa pinakamabuti kong kaibigan. Boldstar eb bukas at di ako makakapunta dahil sa math! Waaahhh!

2003-07-16T06:26:00.000-07:00

Guess what?! MAHAL KO KAYONG LAHAT! Lalo na si...*sino kaya?!* HaHaHaHaHa! :p

2003-07-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

Whee! I'm done "studying" for kas1. Condensed version ang last 2 chapters. HaHaHa! Brain cells...disappearing...must...regain...consciousness. Blech. Labo nun ah. Yan ang ginagawa ng kas1 sakin! HaHaHa!

Stole this from Kaia's blog. It was really nice. She made an entry about brother dunne.
but i finally went inside and looked in the coffin. and that one look at him made me smile... because on his face was a look of contentment, a look of peacefulness... and on his lips lay a small smile. and although i shed a few tears for the loss of a great, great man, i know that he's happy right now, with kuys jess, looking over us dayzers and beaming with pride for all those who are struggling to live their fourth days with the BIL commitment.

Oh! Oh! My bill didn't exceed 1000 last month!!! Whee!!! One small step for mara, one giant leap to my savings account! HaHaHa! Labo nanaman.

Kaia: Di bale, hindi ka nanaman ulit magpopost ng ilang araw. HeHeHe.
Irene: Hi, irene! I'm adding you to my links! Whee! :D
Christa: From Poveda naman talaga, diba? Wala lang. Kamusta na?
Meg: Reminder, may comments link sa ilalim! HaHaHa!
Zee: Sapakin ko talaga yung umaaway sa yo. Leche siya kung sino man siya. Of all people pa, ikaw ang pinagtripan. Kung ano man yun. mahal pa rin kita at maraming nagmamahal sa yo. Lalo na yung mga bandista. :p

2003-07-15T06:09:00.000-07:00

god, i've been dreading this week. No, wednesday and thursday. Blech. We had watercolor for arch2 today. It was okay. I mean, there was nothing more i could do. Tanggap ko naman na palpak ako sa arch2 eh. Wishful thinking na magkaroon ako ng uno. Kung mangyari yun, manlilibre talaga ako. HaHaHa!

Meg: there's a comments link at the bottom of each post so you can use that if the message is too long for the tagboard. HeHeHe. Halatang bago sa mga blog. joke! miss you, babe!

"Dahil kami'y may super powers and not just any powers. Super powers! Super powers? Oo powers! Super powers! And we're gonna make you jabber, chenes chuva chever and we'll always stick together like jam and peanut butter! So, go, sago! Go, go, sago, sago!" WaHaHaHaHa! Humanda lahat ng makakakita sakin! Kakantahin ko yan! HaHaHaHaHa! Takte. ayoko ng kas1. Blech.

2003-07-14T07:16:00.000-07:00

Oh God! Its only monday and it's already hell. Well, i'm just really scared for thursday; kas1 exam, philo reporting, math11 practice test(?). Please, please, please sana wala masyadong mahihirap na plates! Gusto kong lumabas pero mukhang hindi kakayanin. I'll be glad when this week is over. No, wait, when thursday is over.

Today was one of those days that i just felt so laconic. Tama naman yung word, diba? I felt lazy and somehow weak. My right arm had difficulty moving for a moment but it was okay after moving it back and forth for a while. UGH! There's this girl from my kas1 class who annoys me like hell and it just so happens that she always sits next to me. Blech! Dammit! Ang feeling niya na magaling siyang mag-ingles pero hinde! Tangina, sabi niya (in a very trying hard accent), "your, uh, perspiration, uh, wipe the perspiration on your face. your perspiration is dripping." Tangina! Ang bwiset! Feeling niya talaga ang galing niya magsalita ng ingles. Sarap hiritan. Kung kaya ko lang hiritan, matagal ko ng ginawa yun. Marunong naman siyang managalog! Tangina mo, babae ka! Aack! Tapos yung guy sa tabi niya sobrang patay na patay sa babae. Siguro tama naman yung sinasabi niya kung isulat ko pero yung accent niya talaga tsaka maneurisms, shyeeeeeeet! IRITA!!! Matutulog na nga ako!

Before that! leche! user talaga niya. Shempre binuzz ako agad sa ym para lang humingi ng tulong. Pagkatapos di na sumagot. HaHaHa! Kung di lang ktia kaibigan! HaHaHa!

Mon: yes, yes, i know. Close na pala kayo. He calls you mon now. HaHaHa! Tipong, "i was chatting with mon." "Wait a minute, mon?!" And he was all, "Yeah, mon, your friend." Close palaeh! HaHaHa!
Loi: No offense meant. I didn't mean to get you to burst into sudden rage. Wala lang. Tingin ko lang talaga na mas mabuti para sa akin ang hindi manuod. Respect na lang my decision. Hindi naman sa binoboycott ko siya. I'd just rather not watch it. sorry, dude!
Kaia: Ang ganda ng entry mo. i'm glad you had fun in your immersion.
Irene: If you're reading this already, i can't access you blog. I think it's private so i won't be able to read it. HeHeHe. Feel free to look through mine. It's as open as a, uh, door? HaHaHa! Sayang, i wanted to add you to my links. oh well! :P

2003-07-12T20:44:00.000-07:00

Sige na nga. Ngayon lang 'to. WeHeHeHeHe.
Because i wanna show everyone that i have you...and i love you.
Sender:
Goyok este Chris pala. WaHaHaHaHa!
Sent:
13-July-2003
00:45:14
Whee! Melt, melt. Haaayyy.... WaHaHaHaHa! I'm never going to hear the end of this. Pero sige, bahala na! :P

A friend of mine invited me to watch this movie about the sins of a father or something like that. I declined not just for the reason that i was going somewhere but because i strongly felt it was against my religious beliefs. Wow. Ngayon ko lang nagawa yun. Whee! Aylabshu, Lord!

"u-nibersidad ng pilipinas! u-nibersidad ng pilipinas! ma-tatapang matatalino wa-lang takot kahit kanino hinding-hindi magpapa-huli ganyan kaming mga ta-ga-u-p! U-nibersidad ng pilipinas! HeHeHe. Kulit, noh?"
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2003-07-12T10:24:00.000-07:00

Another night of bliss. Whee!!!

I'm very very sure i will regret everything i've done over the previous days. Blech. That's what slacking off is. I haven't done my kas1 outline, arch2 sketch, arch1 plate, and i haven't finished writing notes for my kas1 orals tomorrow. Blech. I think knowing that i have so much time on ym hands makes me lazy which is probably why i did better in school when i started training than when i wasn't. It's that part of me that knows i have to finish something right away because i don't have all the time in the world since i had to take the hours spent on training into consideration.

Damn it. I really really really really want to join the swimming varsity. Although, i do see my mom's point. I jsut want to try it out. Damn it. I've been asked to try-out for it even if i know that i'm not even half as good as they are. Haaayyy....

I totally forgot about the uaap opening yesterday. It was too late when i realized it so i ended up watching the up versus nu basketball game. Bwisit talaga si cruz. Parang nagyayabang pero siya may kasalanan kung bakit ang daming turn-over. Oh well. Next time, next time. So anyway, soon after, goyok fetched me. We were supposed to watch charlie's angels 2 but we were too late. We ended up watching t3. It was okay. Funny cos when i looked to the right, tamang-tama, this guy kissed his girlfriend and he saw me looking. HaHaHa! Oh well. Then we met up with luzee, kit, and tan to have dinner. Rina followed soon after and marlon. My brother surprised me. Turned out that he was at the same place. HaHaHa!

"hey....up go...up fight...hey let's go let's fight! (tama ba?) u-nibersidad ng pilipinas! u-nibersidad ng pilipinas! ma-tatapang matatalino wa-lang takot kahit kanino hinding-hindi magpapa-huli ganyan kaming mga ta-ga-u-p! U-nibersidad ng pilipinas! HeHeHe."
"Baket? Bibili ka ba?" HaHaHa! Katuwa reaction ni kit. I am THE WORST story-teller. HaHa!

2003-07-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

Pakshet. Ayus na blog ko at nawala yung unang entry ko. Bleck. Ang haba pa naman nun. Tsaka ayos na rin ang comments link kaya kung gusto niyong magtag pero masyadong madaldal, may comments link po! Basta masaya nanaman ako! Whee! Sana matuloy bukas. Sana sana sana sana. Bliss. Whee!!!

Tiantamd na kong magkwento. Ang haba na kase nung kanina. Blech. FYI, nairita ako kahapon (thursday) kase wala akong class after math. PArehong hindi dumating ang prof ko kaya tumambay ako at nagsayang ng oras hanggang 5:30. Lecheng buhay.

Today, condensed version. New word thanks to rita. Hi, rita! Went to ateneo after comm3 to fetch sar and mon. I brought them to rodik's then gave them a little tour. Then i met xander and co in the abelardo canteen then went to watch the cheering thing at the chk gym then went to melchor. By the time i got there, i decided i was too sweaty to go a party after my last class that i just had to take a bath at home. I went ome with my sister and got stuck in traffic on the way back to up. Thank God my prof is nice. We had an intro to watercolor today. I am bracing myself for torture next meeting. After class, iw aitied with my archi friends then brought jed to the jeep stop then proceeded to as where i waited for goyok. Luckily, i saw lucy, paula's astig friend, and we talked while waiting. Goyok came in, of all cars which also had to park right in front of as, a benz. We went to his friend erika's party which was full of high school kids. We felt so old. I met Goyok's blockmates who seemed really fun to be with then when we went home, we bumped into marlon who was attending a party in renaissance. Just so happens, angeli's there as well. Whee! Then there. Bliss. Whee!!!

Guys, let's pray for sir sonny, his wife, and his newborn baby. Nasa incubator siya ngayon. Sana walang komplikasyon. Mahal ng dee si sir sonny, diba? ;)

Owel: di ko pa napapakinggan. Laging wrong timing. I'm sure it's a wonderful track. ;)
Fort: Hi, fort!!! Izma!!!
Sarah: Bleck. Nagkikita naman kame eh! WeHeHeHeHe. Kanina lang. At baka bukas. Sarap kumain sa up, noh?
Mon: Baket k na ngayon? Wala lang. Kala ko kung sino.
Loi: Oo nga. Nasa akin pa invite ni luzee para sa yo at kay cris. Text me. You always have class when i call.
Luzee: Halabshu! :)

2003-07-10T05:34:00.000-07:00

Sender:
Goyok
Sent:
9-July-2003
22:42:28
------------------ *oops, censored nanaman! HaHaHa!*

Oh Lord. Poor guy. What did i do? HaHaHaHaHa! Honestly, i don't find anything good in me. Parang lahat ng nakikita ko masama. Alam na ng dee 'to kase sinabi ko nung retreat. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nila kong gustong maging kaibigan. Tsaka wala talagang may kilala sa akin. Wala lang. Sige, go on with life.

Luzee...halabshu! Wag na malungkot. andito ako at ang dee para sa yo....

Rita, kung anuman yun, mahal pa rin kita. :)

Dumaan akong ateneo kanina. Ang dami kong nakita. Miss ko na sila. Miss ko na ang dee. Nakita ko si ninay. Gusto ko siyang i-hug pero ewan ko. Ayokong maalala niya muna. Ayokong malungkot siya dahil sa akin kaya kinamusta ko na lang siya. Tapos nakita ko si charo! Whee! Sana ako'y kasing payat at buff ni charo. Ayoko na ng taba! Tangina naman oh! Kasama ko si allue. Sorbang miss ko na siya. Just like old times. Wala na yung ilangan or whatever.

O sya, gagamitin pa ng kuya ko ang computer.

2003-07-09T01:55:00.000-07:00

Ang ganda ng bagsak ng ulan ngayon. Nagbabasa lang ata ako gn blog nun biglang naamoy ko siya. Akala ko guni-guni ko lang pero pag tingin ko sa labas ng bintana, umuulan na pala. Malakas pero hindi maingay. PArang ang lambot ng bagsak niya; hindi maingay. Para bang may sinasabi yung panahon. Ewan ko ba.

2003-07-08T23:30:00.000-07:00

I HATE SPONGE COLA. Stupid konyo band that ripped off crazy for you. Imago's version is waaaaaaaay better. Kaya lang naman sila kilala kase puro konyo mga fans nila. Blech. I hate sponge. die. Fuck sponge to the darkest pits of hell. HaHaHaHaHa! Ang sama ko talaga. Oh yes, i remember now. I'm a bitch. Biatch!

2003-07-08T05:10:00.000-07:00

Whee!!! Ang gaganda ng mga grade ko ngayon!!! Whee! May 1.5 na ko sa arch2!!! Yeyyyy! Tapos dalawang 1.0 sa arch10 tsaka 1.5 ata sa arch1. Whee!!! Pero kutob ko ngayon lang yun. Na-rush ko kase yung sa arch10 kanina para matapos yung arch2 na plate kung saan naka 1.5 ako. Whee! Sana makabawi ako.

Sana sana sana matuloy yung gimik ko bukas. Sana mabilis lang makakuha ng lisensiya si goyok para makalabas kame at makanuod ng charlie's angels. HeHeHe. Tsaka gusto ko bumisita sa poveda.

Ang light ng load ko this week. At least i think so. Yung kas1 readings sa monday pa tapos walang plate na gagawin sa arch10. Arch1 lang ang meron tapos measure measure lang yun. Pwede namang kunin yung bluueprints ng bahay eh. HeHeHe. Daya palaeh! Yung arch2 siguro uulitin ko. Panget yung drawing eh. Blech.

Whee! Happy day. Thank you, Kuya Jess! :D

2003-07-07T07:20:00.000-07:00

Haaaayyyy! Natapos din! Whee!!! No more cramming as much as possible. And always make sure you have enough info. Blech.

Ang dami ko dapat isusulat pero nakalimutan ko na. Oh! Oh! Xander, Dred, Irene, Sheila, and Aya are thinking of joining days! Whee!!! Ang saya-saya! Sana matuloy silang lahat. Puro college naman so sem break na by then. Sana nga lang pwede akong magstaff. Sana hindi sa antipolo. Sana hindi sa antipolo....

Oh! Oh! I had a philo test today and i got 42 or 41/50. Kala ko mababa na siya pero nung nagcompute ng grades, naka 90% ako. Tapos akala ko mababa yun pero hinde kase 1.25 siya!!! Whee!!! Meron na kong 1.25!!! Buti pa philo mataas at okey pa yung grades. Di tulad ng arch. Sana sana sana hindi na ko magka2. Please, please, please, kuya Jess!!! Pero laki ng kutob ko 2.5 ang susunod ko na plate. Argh. Baket naman kase hindi na lang pinasa nung friday eh! Tuloy, ang taas ng expectations! Blech!

Boto niyo ang imago sa mtv awards! Best new artist, best video, best song, best group ata. Basta apat ata yun. Boto kayo, ha? :D

2003-07-06T05:31:00.000-07:00

The next time i see a book, it'll be too soon. Too dang soon!

A22 of A-days will be on october 17-19. Who wants to join? Sali kayo! Sobrang worth it! Shameless plugging. Kaia, i know of two people who want to join and that's excluding our classmates. :D

"Never on a rainy day. To free fall. Never on a run down day. To free fall." Whee! Imago, yeeaahh!

Must study philo!!!

Oh yeah! Congrats to cams! Kahit na matagal na. HeHeHe.

2003-07-05T22:51:00.000-07:00

Must...watch...three...sisters...!

Tinatamad pa kong mag-update. Mamaya na lang.

Ate Dada: Hi!!! Miss na kita! Kamusta med school? Sana okay ka lang. ayus lang naman ako. Masaya kahit na busy. Lagi ko nakikita kapaid mo sa casaa. Lakas nga ng boses eh. Joke joke joooooke! :)

2003-07-05T07:53:00.000-07:00

Wheeee!!! Grabe!!! Ang tagal-tagal-tagal-tagal na!!! Ngayon lang 'to nangyari. Or maybe it did but a long time ago. It felt sooo good and it still does.

I watched the three sisters today in up. It was soooooo cool! I wanna watch it again. By the way, ngayon lang ako nakakita ng mga taong humalik (with passion) sa harapan ko. Less than five feet away. Wala lang. Feeling ko nakakatawa itsura ko kase sobrang laki ng ngiti ko habang lahat sila sobrang dinaramdam ang "moment". I wanna watch it again! Really nice show. Nahiya nga lang ako tumawa kase parang ako lang yung mahilig tumawa dun. Ang seryoso kase ng mga tao. Oh well! Astig pa rin! I suggest you all watch it. Astig!

Sinundo ako ni Goyok nang mga 6:45pm, an hour later. Pero ayus lang kase may nakilala akong babae na pangalan ay ina. Nagmamasters na siya. Tinatamad na kong ikwento lahat ng nangyari. Basta, nabasa uli ako sa ulan nang hinatid ko si brenda sa sakayan ng toki tapos tambay sa vinzons kase basang sisiw na ko tas lakad sa direksyon ng as kase andun daw sina goyok at hindi nila alam ang up.

Birthday party ni gah kanina sa mcdo. Mind you, she's seventeen years old. HeHeHe. Ang saya-saya makita ang mga kaklase ko! PArang ang tatanda na namin. Kakaiba na siya. Wala na nga ang dating dee03. Puro college na gnayon ang usapan. Pupunta dapat kaming smokin cue pero sarado na kaya inisip nilang pumuntang eastwood na lang. Pareho kame ni goyok na loaded ngayon kaya inuwi na niya ko. Whee! Ayun lang. Pag alis niya, sabay may text na *beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!* Oops, censored! WaHaHaHaHa! Baka mabuko ako dahil hindi ko alam kung sino-sino talaga ang nagbabasa. Charing!

2003-07-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

Ayyyyy. Remind me to never ever look for a cab in shang in the evening. Lord! The guy practically charged me thrice the amount for a ten-freakin-minute ride! Lord.... This is what i get for lying. Ayayayayay.

THANK YOU, XANDER!!!

Oh! Oh! I got a 1.75 on my plate! Whee!!! Happy happy joy joy! Whee! But this next one sucks so i guess i'm back to a 2. Lord.

I've come to accept that i can never be part of kontra gapi because of the schedule. Sigh.... Oh well. i decided to take drum lessons in the college of music. Sana may slot pa para hindi masayang yung mga sobrang haba kong mga break. Whee! Getting excited!

2003-07-03T18:40:00.000-07:00

Whee! Ang daming nagtag! Happy ako! Whee! HaHaHa. Bagong paboritong word ko ang whee. Whee!

Happy birthday, gah! Malapit ka ng maging iska! Konting tiyaga na lang sa ua&p.

For all those who have nothing to do and want to accompany me during my loooooong breaks. HaHaHa! Here goes: (breaks 'to ah)
Mondays and thursdays: 10-11:30, 1-4
Tuesdays: 12-1:30
Wednesdays: NA
Fridays: 8:30-3:30 solid! HaHaHa!

I forgot to put this yesterday. So i went to ateneo yesterday, right? It's soooooo different from UP. Ang linis ng campus nila. And the people? The were...wag na lang. HaHaHa! Sobrang nanibago ako kase lahat sila pare-pareho. Halos lahat sila konyo. It soooo affirmed my beliefs about ateneo. Not that it sucks ass. Mabait naman yung mga tao pero iba lang talaga. I just really don't like it. *expecting violent reactions now. HaHaHa!*

Kaia: Salamat sa tips! HaHaHa! Dpat yun na nga talaga gagawin ko pero akala ko talaga ibababa ako sa harap ng ateneo mismo. *bonks self on the head* HaHaHaHaHa! I have learned my lesson.
Karla: I'm glad you feel better. Broadcasted palaeh! I should see that for myself. HaHaHa! I'll visit poveda some time.
Fort: Pinost ko na ang sched ko. Pili lang kayo ng araw. HaHaHa! Tsaka ewan ko ba kung baket hindi ko kayo inisip tawagan. Ahh, kase alala ko na baka walang pasok pa si zarah. My mistake. Lesson learned. :)
Owel: Sama ka sa lunch ah! Alla izma lunch. Tandaan mo pa yun? HaHaHaHaHa!

2003-07-03T05:00:00.000-07:00

Ayyyyy nako! Irita talaga. Hindi ko alam kung yung comp, server, o ano ang may problema. Leche talaga Minsan di ko ma-access yung mga sites. Nakakapasok lang ako kapag binubuksan ko kaagad pagkaconnect. Labo meng.

Nakakairita! Kase dapat magkikita kame ni kaia kaninang mga 1pm. So natapos ang klase ko 12:45. Enough time to ride the jeep and go to ateneo. BUT, stupid me, i didn't go down in the overpass. So the jeep stopped under the bridge. So sakay na lang ako ng ibang jeep. So tinanong ko yung guy, "manong, pupunta po bang ateneo yung jeep na 'to?" Sabi niya oo edi sakay ako. Eh ang tagal bago umandar kase naghihintay pa siyang mapuno yung jeep. Leche. TAPOS, umandar na. Eh biglang dumaan an siyang ateneo pero andun siya sa gitna ng highway! so sinabi kong pumara siya sa tabi tapos dun siya sa may gitna ng dalawang gate! Edi ang layo ng nilakad ko. Lece talaga. Tapos hindi ko pa naabutan si kaia! Pero nakita ko naman si mommy xyn kaya ayus lang. Tapos lahat ng kaibigan ko, may pasok so inisip kong bumalik ng up. Naglalakad ako papuntang sakayan tapos biglang umambon! So lakd lang ako kase basa na rin ako. TAPOS, luamkas yung ulan! So parang akong basang sisiw sa loob ng jeep. Basta ayun. Wala lang.

Wala lang. Naaliw ako. Merong mga totoo. HaHaHa!
MAY:
--Stubborn/hard-hearted/strong-willed/highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others & loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically/mentally.

--Firm Standpoint.. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.

Sickness usually in ear/neck. Good imagination/physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature/arts/traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many kids. Hardworking/high-spirited/spendthrift.

Karla: Aww. It's okay. You shouldn't fret about things like leadership roles. They don't really matter when you get to college. Bagong buhay ka dun. Tsaka alam ko yung feeling na nagtrabaho ka pero walang binibigay na credit sa yo. But then that's the beauty of it. Agh. Basta. Don't fret. Aylabshu! CORE rules! LLC!

2003-07-02T01:19:00.000-07:00

ryandayrit: i think... we are... when were still waiting for something, we didnt know that what has come between us has become the answer to it... Awww....Congrats to trizzia and ryan! Whee! Love is in the air. Charing!

It's been awfully quiet over here. Sana naman meron pang nagbabasa nito. Pero ayus lang din kung wala. Para lang meron akong malabasan ng galit, saya, lungkot, o ano.

Tita Cherry's husband came here to fix the computer. The floppy disk drive works and he fixed some of my settigns. Whee! HeHeHe.

I'm getting too lazy. I have to read for kas1 and i can't seem to make myself do it. Oh well.

Meron akong gustong tulungan pero ayaw niya yata. I mean, siguro iniisip niya na acquaintances lang kame at wala akong karapatan tulungan siya pero gusto ko talaga. Kase nangyari na sakin yung nangyari sa kanya. Isa pa, gusto ko talaga siyang maging kaibigan. Wala ng hiya-hiya, wala ng alanganin. Gusto kong maging magkaibigan na kame. Pero wala yata. Kaya ayun. Sige, go on with life. Nakakalungkot lang kase lahat ng gusto kong maging ka-close eh ayaw. May nahahanap na iba maliban sa akin. Oh well. Go on nga with life. Back to spanish imperialism ba yun? Lecheng kas1.

2003-07-01T16:08:00.000-07:00

It's funny how people always try to interpret everything. The slight mention of someone's name or the lyrics to a song or the words in a poem. They all make us think that the writer is speaking to us. Maybe that's why so many people just die when they find out that the person they "like" doesn't "like" them back. Infatuation. Yes. It amazes me.

2003-07-01T05:07:00.000-07:00

I want to post this forward i got from the a-days mailing list but it's too dang long so i won't. It's entitled, "The one that got away." I like it. I think i'm falling into senti mode again. Ngyark. Or maybe cut and paste mode. HaHaHa! Anyway, the title says it all. It made me think of all the what ifs. Wala lang. Yung tipong, ano kaya kung nangyari yung ganito with ganito. No names today or any day for that matter. It is something i am very emotional about. Charing! Joke joke joke! Hinde, basta pag yun ang iniisip ko, lalo lang akong mag-iisip and one thing will lead to another and another and another.

There are those things that try as you may, you will never be able to let go of. Years may pass but you will never forget that one experience that may have perhaps changed your life entirely. It slips out of your mind for a while but it will always find it's way back, always lingering at the back of your head. What if? Haaayyy, what if nga. Sabihin niyo kung gusto niyong i-mail ko yung forward na yun.

Lin said in her blog: I mean really, it doesn’t mean, at all, that when I’m fat all the other thin people are a lot healthier. They just look better in clothes, that’s all.

2003-06-30T07:33:00.000-07:00

Tapos na ko sa plates!!! Woohoo! Yung comm3 reporting na lang. Sana naman hindi masyadong mahirap yung mga take home plates bukas. Please, please, please, please. Must...sleep...well....

I was reading for kas1 and this thing just really got to me. Wala lang. Senti side ni mara. Chareeeng!

Kanogon si kanogon nakanogon ni ladan ko a pakurasai mamikir a ma palanding a dar na di akun mapungud a bobogang ko sa gugao ka oman akun ipantao na pasulakapan a ig o matao kandalia.

"woe, woe unto me. Worried of thinking of a loved one and i cannot let my feelings prevail, express my love, because everytime i want o reveal it water stops it in its way."

Tsaka eto pang sinabi ng philo prof ko. Wala lang. Taken from some other person din naman. Si kebs malamang pagtatawanan 'tong sinabi ni sir Arana. HaHaHa! "If you want to be loved, love first. You cannot give something you do not have."

Sel: Kaw ba yan? As in yung dating roomie ni zee? Astig! Astig! Salamat po. Miss na kita. Twice pa lang kita nakikita. Lagi kitang kinakamusta kay zee. Well, di naman lagi. Pag naaalala ko lang. HaHaHa!

2003-06-29T06:44:00.000-07:00

Ripped this off from a friend. It's one of those things that just gets my attention probabaly because it's so true. Apparently, those things that make the fondest memories are the ones that disappear first. I wonder why sometimes we don't hold on to them as we should.

Malapit ko ng isumpa ang archi. Hindi ako nakapuntang big sky kagabi dahil sa plates na yan. Oh well. At least matatapos ko na siya bukas para may additional 0.25 sa grade ko. Ayoko na ng dos. Sabi ng ate ko mas mababa pa raw sa G ang dos at hindi pwede yun. Kailangan kong matutong gumuhit.

Onga pala. Sa mga nagbasa nung isang entry ko, yung para kay _____, tsismosa talaga kayo. HaHaHa! FYI, babae po ang kinakausap ko. Very very dear friend. Tsaka isa pa. Napansin ko yung ibang entries ko medyo wa connect sa grammar. Tange talaga ako. Ganun na ba ko ka-bobo? Oh well.

Aylabshu, owel! Wag ng mangamba. Tama ba yun? Basta, you get the point. Tsaka kay john naman, if ever mabasa mo, ayus lang yan. Dasal ka kay Lord at humingi ng tulong. :)